I wish there was a temporary suicide button. Not really a 'suicide' per se, but more of a stop-existing-for-a-while thing. I want to skip to the part where I can keep living normally knowing my secrets disgust most people. I've spent the greater part of five years hoping they didn't find out about it yet, and guess what? They found out. I'm ashamed to even be turned on by anything now; it'd just be more proof I'm the worst human being on the face of the planet.