I get too excited about things, and I shouldn't.
Every time I talk about something I'm excited about or even fucking vaguely interested in, I get told to stop. I'm so tired of being punished for being happy.

I'm getting WAY back into Marvel (and honestly I have an obsessive personality, so I guess it's my fault), and my friends are annoyed with me. I'm even forcing myself to not talk or think about it because I'll get too excited, and then I'll be brought back down again.

It's getting to the point where I'm scared of getting excited. Scared of being happy because the people fucking dearest to me will shit on my parade.