Everything lately seems to be falling apart around me and I'm not sure what to do. Do I let it happen? Or do I try and prevent it? It seems like things that shouldn't upset me are and things I've been hearing aren't helping. I just feel lost and in a dark tunnel alone. The light is there, but it is the end? Or is it just a train coming to shake things up? Only time will tell I guess, not sure why I'm exactly typing this. Maybe it's for me to feel better and just be able to say what's on my mind? I don't know especially since I'm being very vague. All I know is happiness is seeming harder to come by and I'm not exactly sure what to do. especially when I want to be with/around and make more friends, but at the same time I hate having them see me like this and I want to just stay away. I often wonder if others feel this way? Or it is just me? Idk way to many feelings and thoughts going in my head and it's kinda overwhelming. I think I'm going to bed. Goodnight