So yeah. I'm never very good at sticking to something, like, day in day out. But here's the first of hopefully many journals to come..

My life recently, as some of you may know, and others may not, has been hectic at best.
My family is unpredictable, my circle of friends no longer exists, and consists of just me really, and one or perhaps at most two others, since everyone else has a girlfriend, or boyfriend, and is too busy to remember the good old days and hang out with me.

I've started on the road to helping myself though; I've suffered with depression for about 7 years, and just a couple weeks ago, finally stood up, gritted my teeth, and saw the doctor. He prescribed me 50mg of Sertraline a day, said come back in 4 weeks.
I don't think the Sertraline is really helping; it just kind'a makes this weird emptiness feeling where my heart is, and I can't help feel my emotions are being artificially manipulated.

All these problems essentially began when I was about ten. I was diagnosed with Aspergers Syndrome (A strange strand of Autism) When I was about that age as a result of my alienation from my peers. That's not stopped; I'm still a quirky outcast, and when girls take an interest in me (Or
boys) It's usually for someone ELSE I know.

I don't know what the point in all this is. I guess I'm just kind'a putting it up here for you all to see. It's not a "My situation is worse than yours" Piece of crap. But I guess you can look at it and say "Well, my situation COULD be as bad as this." I'm a geek, I'm a bit on the pudgy side (Thank god I'm not FAT fat... Yet.) And I have poor hygiene. I've never been able to settle into a routine, because my parents interrupt it every time and I don't know why, but it REALLY throws me off, and fucks with my head when that happens. When I get into a routine, and it gets interrupted. So I'm naturally depressed by that too, since most of us people with Aspergers are creatures of habbit, and live strictly by a routine. Anyway. Enough of that pity-talk shit. I'm just depressing myself more. Read this! It's totally groovy, and brings back my 90's Nostalgia.


You remember watching:

[X] Kenan and Kel;
[X] Doug;
[X] Ren & Stimpy;
[X] Pinky & the Brain;
[X] AAAAAAAH Real Monsters!;
[X] Rocko's Modern Life;
[X] Animaniacs;
[X] Gargoyles
[X] Hey Arnold!;
[X] Out of the Box;
[X] Bear in the Big Blue House.
[X] You’ve ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCHE!";
[X] You just can’t resist finishing this: "In west Philadelphia born and raised...".

You remember:

[X] Step by Step;
[X] Family Matters;
[X] Dinosaurs;
[X] Boy Meets World;
[X] Full House.
[X] You remember when it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons.
[X] You remember reading Goosebumps.

When everything was settled by:

[X] "Rock/paper/scissors";
[X] "Bubble gum, bubble gum in a dish";
[X] "Miss Mary Mack".
[X] When kickball was something you did everyday;
[X] You used to listen to the radio all day long;
[X] Just to record your FAVORITE song of ALL time on a tape.
[X] You remember Super Nintendo and Sega Genesis
[X] You remember The Original Game Boy;
[X] You always wanted to send in a tape to America’s Funniest Home Videos... but never taped anything funny;

You remember watching:

[X] The Magic School Bus;
[X] Wishbone;
[X] Reading Rainbow;
[X] Ghostwriter.
[X] You remember when Yo-Yo's were cool
[X] You remember those "Where’s Waldo" books;
[X] You remember eating Warheads and Splashers Gushers;

You remember watching:

[X] Batman the Animated Series
[X] Aladdin;
[X] Ninja Turtles;
[X] Ghost Busters.
[X] You remember Ring Pops!!!;
[X] You remember when everything was "da BOMB!";
[X] You remember boom boxes vs. CD players;

[X] Making those little paper fortune cookie things, and then predicting your life with them;
[X] You played and/or collected Pogs
[X] You had at least one Tamagotchi, GigaPet or Nano and brought it everywhere you went.

You watched the original cartoons of:

[X] Rugrats;
[X] Wild Thornberrys;
[X] Power Rangers.
[X] All your school supplies were "Lisa Frank" brand.

You collected:

[X] Beanie Babies;
[X] Pokemon cards;
[X] Carebears;
[X] Silver dollars.

You remember when:

[X] Everyone watched the WB
[X] Everybody knew all the Pokemon by heart
[X] Digimon was still on
[X] If you even know what an original Walkman is;
[X] You know the Macarena by heart;
[X] "Talk to the hand" ;
[X] You went to McDonald’s to play in the playplace and it was still sanitary;
[X] Before the MySpace frenzy;
[X] Before the Internet & text messaging;
[X] Before Sidekicks & iPods;
[X] Before PlayStation3 or X-Box 360;
[X] Back before X-Box period;
[X] Before SpongeBob;
[X] When light up sneakers were cool
[X] When you rented VHS tapes, not DVDs;
[X] When gas was $0.95 a gallon;
[X] When we recorded stuff on VCR
[X] You had slap bracelets
[X] You actually played outside until it was dark
[X] Way back before we realized all this would eventually disappear;
[X] Post this if you smiled at least more than 5 times;
[X] And if you remember at least half the stuff on here.


It's just a shame they missed out the bouncing boneheads! (Or Knuckleheads, depending on who you ask.)