sooo hi guys. i was put in inpatient mental health care place for what, 5-6 days? july 28th - aug 3rd. it was so intense. i had exhaustion from not sleeping or eating for like 3 days and lost my mind during my first night there. huge panic attack, dissociation, cold sweats, dry heaving. my blood pressure was 180/110 - i could’ve died!? …….

anyway. they put me on effexor 75mg, seroquel 50mg, hydroxyzine/vistaril 50mg, and atenolol 50mg. i’m so fucking nervous tbh wow. my vision is super funky, everything feels like bright and fuzzy. i feel like eating meat and sweets make me really ill. bleh. i hope this doesn’t affect me weird, like really bad. reading about the side effects has spooked me big time. brain zaps!?!? pls no

blah. well. i was diagnosed with major depressive disorder, recurring and severe. also generalized anxiety disorder. and they think i have borderline personality disorder but it’s not official.

it's about $1250 a night. i have no insurance.

FML