I am not okay. I've just had one shit of a day, I'm sick and now, to lock it up with a golden key, someone tried to get me to doubt my best friend's loyalty and he made it. I don't know wether what he's told me is true not, but I don't care anymore. I'm better on my own. It's not my fault that I was born like this. If feet don't mean anything to you, that's perfectly fine, but if you're my friend you should know me better than that! Nothing can hurt me more than a friend of mine giving their feet to someone else and it seems like no one gives a shit about not trying to hurt me. You think that hiding it from me will work? No, it won't, because the same way that you're not loyal, other people won't be loyal with you and, eventually, I'll know what happened...

I could talk to him about it and find out if it's true or not, right? But if I do so and it wasn't true, then he's going to lose a friendship because of me, and I don't wanna be more of a pain to someone than I already am. I should just go back to isolating myself again.. I should stop being stupid enough to try and make friends when I know that they always leave. I'll keep writting my stories though, because they mean a lot to me and I'm not gonna let anyone take that away from me too!

I'm trying to get better. I'm doing the best that I can in fighting my stupid depression and anxiety disorder, but it's not easy, specially when you have no one by your side besides yourself. Plus, I will never be touching anyone's feet again, I just can't bear to get hurt in this way anymore. You've made me give up on the one thing that I loved the most on life. I hope you're proud of yourself now.

I will not be replying to any comments on this journal. Please, leave me alone. The lone wolf cannot be leader of the pack.