Changed my Mind and Opened up the Doors
16 years ago
General
"When I was younger, so much younger than today,
I never needed anybody's help in any way.
But now these days are gone, I'm not so self assured,
Now I find I've changed my mind and opened up the doors."
I'm a natural hermit, but lately I've been regretting that habit.
It's not as easy a thing for me anymore to simply turn on Meebo (or AIM or Yahoo or whatnot) and randomly IM someone. For one, there aren't a great many people who I know that would be willing to answer, and there have never been a great many people on my lists to begin with.
I'll be the first to say that I don't exactly have a very magnetic personality, and am absolutely horrid at keeping in contact with friends. Even the people to whom I feel the most attached, and have the most affection for hardly ever hear from me (gaps in communication can go for as long as months).
But I am a social creature, and recent times have made me appreciate and yearn for the sort of regular interaction and companionship that I've been so standoffish towards for so long.
So I'm going to be making efforts to be more sociable; not only by signing into my messengers more often, but also by posting more journals.
These have been hard times for me recently, with harder ones likely one the way. Facing them alone is a prospect I don't look forward to, and loneliness on the top[ of that makes for a rather bleak existence.
So, look out for me - I might just be uploading more journals then pictures in the days ahead.
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I never needed anybody's help in any way.
But now these days are gone, I'm not so self assured,
Now I find I've changed my mind and opened up the doors."
I'm a natural hermit, but lately I've been regretting that habit.
It's not as easy a thing for me anymore to simply turn on Meebo (or AIM or Yahoo or whatnot) and randomly IM someone. For one, there aren't a great many people who I know that would be willing to answer, and there have never been a great many people on my lists to begin with.
I'll be the first to say that I don't exactly have a very magnetic personality, and am absolutely horrid at keeping in contact with friends. Even the people to whom I feel the most attached, and have the most affection for hardly ever hear from me (gaps in communication can go for as long as months).
But I am a social creature, and recent times have made me appreciate and yearn for the sort of regular interaction and companionship that I've been so standoffish towards for so long.
So I'm going to be making efforts to be more sociable; not only by signing into my messengers more often, but also by posting more journals.
These have been hard times for me recently, with harder ones likely one the way. Facing them alone is a prospect I don't look forward to, and loneliness on the top[ of that makes for a rather bleak existence.
So, look out for me - I might just be uploading more journals then pictures in the days ahead.
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FA+

I'm trying to change that.
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BTW: I love the pairing of Shelton and his sister. At least for storyline, a sibling can be closer then any lover. I have yet to read your story about them, but I will ASAP.
If you ever want to talk, just give me a poke on what ever messaging system you want. Hell, even if its a PM I don't mind. =p
Either way, I'm "spudugly". If you see me, it means I want to chat.
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Does that sound anything like you?
If you've found a way to make this kind of thing more bearable I'd love to know the secret, as there's some people out there I'm sure I'm disappointing. :(
I'm not that great of a multi-tasker. I can hold more then one conversation, but not that damn many. And if I need to explain something more then once, I sometimes just copy-pasted my responses.
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But more importantly--I want to disabuse you of the notion that you don't have a magnetic personality. You really are one of the livewires of the local furmeet group. People like you & your personality, magnetic or not. Deal with this burden gracefully & use you powers for good. ^_~
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