So the past week to today I have been having a great difficulty sleeping which isn't something particularly new for me but i had been getting onto a good sleep routine and now its all out of wack again. Been having nightmares and troubling thoughts. Last night ws one of the worsts I think. I went to investigate a psych ward cause I got a letter asking for help. they ended up tricking me and not letting me leave. They said I had been signed into being a ward of the state and all my financial assets and all my life would now be none of my choice and they were gonna medicate me into a numbess I didn't want. I begged I begged to go home there was nothing wrong with me. but no one would listen. I try to escape but I coudn't. it was so frightening.
I suppose its just cause tooday is the anniversery of an event I just can't get out of my head no matter how I try. I feel a bit confused and sad. All the lack of sleep has taken place on my health.
Though on a brighter note, yesterday was really great. Went and seen a movie with my daddy/babyboy/friend and just spent the day hanging out. It was very wonderful.
And today I got to discuss art with an artist who work I like so thats good too.
I gotta try and get some sleep tongiht.
I have work bright and early in the morning.