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16 years ago
So, um.
Apparently, from what has been said in my usual IRC channel of choice... A friend of mine committed suicide a few days ago, and was discovered hanging by his doorframe today, upon prompting by his boyfriend to his roommate to check in on him.
I had no idea that this person was this level of unstable... I was decently good friends with him, I believe I actually owed him art, so I feel bad about never getting him that... We had talked plenty about computers, throwing around ideas of one day owning a computer repair/build store thing. We had chats about workplaces. And the best part? My friends live in a small house about a 20 minute walk from mine, which isn't that far considering how huge my city is.
I'm strangely on and off affected by this. I haven't until this day encountered a personal death of a friend that I knew in real life. I think eventually my mind will push it to the back and I'll forget about it... eventually... But I doubt that that will be any time soon, especially since he was a figure of the local furry community, not terribly well known, but a good guy. a bit creepy, sometimes, and a bit overreactive when it comes to anger... but he was good to talk to sometimes.
I was kinda wondering where he'd been of late, too. Wanted to talk to him about some more computer stuff. Kinda worried about my other friends, though, a lot of the furs on IRC are rather close online... I'm worried about some of my friends. Can't do anything about things now. Back to the usual furry drama in 3...2....1....
*hugs*
snowfox19 ....=\ ill miss him. he was a good guy.
Apparently, from what has been said in my usual IRC channel of choice... A friend of mine committed suicide a few days ago, and was discovered hanging by his doorframe today, upon prompting by his boyfriend to his roommate to check in on him.
I had no idea that this person was this level of unstable... I was decently good friends with him, I believe I actually owed him art, so I feel bad about never getting him that... We had talked plenty about computers, throwing around ideas of one day owning a computer repair/build store thing. We had chats about workplaces. And the best part? My friends live in a small house about a 20 minute walk from mine, which isn't that far considering how huge my city is.
I'm strangely on and off affected by this. I haven't until this day encountered a personal death of a friend that I knew in real life. I think eventually my mind will push it to the back and I'll forget about it... eventually... But I doubt that that will be any time soon, especially since he was a figure of the local furry community, not terribly well known, but a good guy. a bit creepy, sometimes, and a bit overreactive when it comes to anger... but he was good to talk to sometimes.
I was kinda wondering where he'd been of late, too. Wanted to talk to him about some more computer stuff. Kinda worried about my other friends, though, a lot of the furs on IRC are rather close online... I'm worried about some of my friends. Can't do anything about things now. Back to the usual furry drama in 3...2....1....
*hugs*
snowfox19 ....=\ ill miss him. he was a good guy.
Why I know? There was a time I planned to kill myself, many years ago.
You have my condolences, and I wish you and all other affected the best luck and strength to continue, to go on.
If I made you angry or to broke up your wounds again I only can apalogise, if I caused such effects it made me honestly sorry.
I did not mean to upset you in any way, I just tried to help, I meant to tell you there is nothing you would have to blame yourself for. There was no cry for help you could have missed.
If he had wanted to be saved he would have actively or by behavior passively cried for help, for solace, for relief, for commisery to find mercy. All those people who write how it hurts and that they want to die cry for help, because they actually want to live, only see no way to face thier odds.
To disappear in a normal way instead is the method to make people not worry about his absence, to leave them the impression he is still alife and just lost contact. Means he did not want them to stop him, because he actually wanted to be dead, to remove himself, and do it in a way nobody would notice, so nobody else would be hurt.
Go on, stay alife and live. It is also what he would have wanted you to do.
Don't really know what happened and right now, it doesnt matter... just wanna move along with things.
<my two cents> Either way, though, I feel that I have to be frank for a moment and say that I wouldn't have much sympathy for the dead guy no matter which one turned out to be true. I can feel sorry for the crap his parents, roommates, etc. are going to have to deal with (bills, investigation, possible Internet harassment a la Mitchell Henderson), but I don't have any sympathy for people that kill themselves or people that do extremely stupid things and die. </two cents>
I understand the loss. All I can do is give my condolences, and that Snow will finally be at peace.
I bet there are a ton of people out there like me that he never knew, and that never knew him personally, but will miss him nonetheless.
May he rest peacefully. My thoughts go with you and your friends that knew him.
thanks.
I have been a tad concerned about him for the past few days myself. He would sign on and not talk, and when I pestered him to say something he said he'd talk with me later. And now this... Gosh.
I don't know what the reasons or events were that lead to his dying, but I do feel rather odd about it. I hope his funeral and such things go somewhat smoothly, and I hope the weird stuff he got into on the internet doesn't become too huge to his friends and family, that'd be pretty devastating atop the death...
My condolences.