I was feeling really terrible all day yesterday.

I am beginning to think that it might have been sheer exhaustion from everything that has been going on.

We have both really been in a constant state of stress for last month, and in all honestly, really since February, and that is a long time to constantly be on edge.

The problem is that while there is one stress that is over, there is another that is affecting me, and I'll have to deal with it for about 3 more weeks.

Because of everything that is going on, we have been hemorrhaging money lately (and I am about to go get my windshield replaced, woo hoo, 300 more bucks)

I has already made all the arrangements to go to MFM, I am on staff, head of the fursuit games and parade, So it isn't like I am just going cause I want to go. Of course I want to go, but I also have responsibilities when I do go.

Right now, I am not sure that I am going to be able to go. I had planned on two friends of mine (which I will not name for their privacy) to come up, stay a day, and then we all drive to MFM.

The reason I wanted to do that is two fold. First off, our "new" car is 8 years old, has over 160K miles on it, and I am trusting it less lately to get us places safely. The second reason is that because of that I do not want to drive 8.5 hours by myself, That means I either need to find a ride or shell out $150 for a bus ride that will take like 15 hours (which means I have to pack very minimally)

My friends are having major money issues of their own and they aren't sure that they can go. If the cant go, then that gives me much less reason to go, and puts a monkey wrench in how I will get there. And the other side of it is if they CAN go, I will of course have to help with gas and staying in their room will cost a lot more than a normal con, and that is money I don't have.

There are other options. Another local friend is going and I could catch a ride with him, of course still helping with gas, but the only problem is that since I am staff I kinda need to be there early Thursday and he wont get there till late Thursday, and I kinda have an event I'm staffing Thursday evening.

There is also another friend who has offered a bed, though since I'd be in bed with someone I dunno I'd prolly take the floor. Its just a little quirk of mine, don't like to sleep i a bed with strangers. So that could help as well.



So there are options, but right now if my two friends don;t go, there is really only one or two people I'd wanna see, I'd have a fairly miserable time there without those two people. I am desperately trying to find a way to get them there, and that is causing them and me a whole lot of stress... They have had such a hard last couple of years.. They deserve a weekend off to forget their troubles and have fun and hang out with friends. They are staff as well and also needed at the con, and I want so badly to try to get them there, more for their happiness than mine. This will be the only con they get to this year. They couldn't even get to a LOCAL con because of monetary issues, which really sucks. All the more reason that I know they'd love to go to MFM.







Also, I am still running my GoFundMe to try to recoup some of my bills, if anyone would like to take a look and possibly help I will be forever in your debt. Thanks.