This year has been filled with a host of blahs and sadly that has started to affect how I feel about cons. I'm still planning on going but I think I'm at the point where I shift to a different phase of how I view cons. I think part of it is due to stress related to memories of MFF 2014 cause let's face it that was a huge drain on everyone involved. That stress nearly prevented me from attending AnimeCentral because I worried someone would be stupid since nothing has ever been found as to who or why it was done. The stress is what has had me down most of the year thus far and it's finally beginning to turn around I think.

As far as I know I am having my tail done in time for MFF and it will be picked up then so I'm super excited for that especially since I had a few that knew Clemikou all but begging to do my tail. I let her handle that cause I still consider myself new to this fandom despite having attended cons since 2007 and that is a new idea that has entered my head. It took a couple years for me to track down who I was within this fandom and now I'm quite comfortable. I am looking into doing a partial suit with a resin base for the head cause I need something to mount fans and the likes to because there is one reason I don't want a full suit. I overheat like no tomorrow and if I get too hot I am prone to passing out and panic attacks. Not a fun thing. But there are ways around that and am looking into more creative ways of making the illusion to a full suit without it being one.

Also in an effort to help myself be a bit more calm, I have taken up watercolor painting again. It was something I did in high school and junior high and it was never really developed into anything but it was soothing. I don't know if I can turn that into anything or it be post worthy, but I have to get my confidence back a little more. I want to try and do some furry art with it since I can't draw for nothing but painting I seem to do better. I get anything worthy of trying to sell I have to talk to Clemi about that for MFF since I have no idea if she is doing a table or not in AA.

That is all for now. Waiting on fluffy tail and trying to figure out how I will wear said tail around with how big it going to be.