how does anyone see you as a burden? I love your work, and Im glad youre here and at least you communicate openly about it

Bad experiences from many times of saying whats wrong with me met with hostility and being told its my own fault

not at all. I mean sometimes perception can affect things, but honestly, alot of what anyone deals with is just as external as it is internal, especially with no one to talk to

also I have to tell you from experience: youre not half as bad as some people on here. not even close. if anything your complaints seem perfectly rational compared to some of theirs

Let me put it this way: Ive never taken note of you spamming journals or stirring up drama, so personally I think your case is legit

Hey its all good sometimes things happen
I been out of my home for like 11 days on business and a trip

You're not being a burden at all. We're all concerned and we want to be able to help you out. Don't blame yourself for not talking. I mean, I've not really spoken to you much at all. >< I really want to help you out though, perhaps we could chat sometime?

Love you dude. Hope you feel better soon.

If you ever wanna chat, don't be afraid to drop me a note.