I wish you didn't feel that way, it can get really tough looking for a job especially when you don't have 'the look' they want. But I can tell you keep trying even if it seems like it isn't woring out just keep doing it. I've seen your art work and its really good, alot of artists have trouble seeling theirs. Don't give up on it, I know things aren't looking good but take it from someone who has had the worst thrown at him, it will get better. May not happen exactly tomorrow, but pick your head up walk into a place and go ' you need me here and this is why'. I know your bf has told you this before but don't wish to be gone forever, you'd be missed by too many people.

Dawwws no one usually comments on my journals o.o, but thank you for the confidence booster :3. I will always keep trying, even if it is hopeless...I don't know the term "completely" give up. I always try to exceed more then what I CAN do. Don't worry, I feel better today ♥ but thank you for your kind words ^^

You're very welcome and I'm glad your doing better today. And that kind of attitude of always striving to do better is gonna shine through and blind a future employer. I can feel it happenin' soon