I want to thank those who have posted with their support. I am deeply touched to hear from those who truly care. Feeling the love, people, feeling the love!

I'm doing much better.

In Nyte I was given the opportunity to be able to love. Really find out how far my heart could go, how deeply I could feel. I knew that it would always eclipse how he felt about me, but I needed the experiment.

I don't regret anything, I'll never regret caring for someone and taking the chances. I never shy away from the chance to love.

Nyte let go when he felt safe to do so, when I told him I had met someone who I knew would change my life.
Meeting my new man, as I told Nyte, was like getting hit with a sledgehammer. The experience was profound and my heart, body and sould responded instinctively to what this man was offering with his eyes. I have not strayed from his gaze since and have found something deeper than I knew was possible.

I wasn't looking for it, it found me.
I could have run away, denied the experience because it came so soon, my heart had just started to settle in my chest once again.
But, I am not a coward. I would not be true to myself if I denied myself this man, this experience, on the basis of fear.
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I also kept a long-standing date with a lady, which was fulfilled this past weekend. I found comfort and safety in her arms. Yet another person who looked into my soul and savored it like a treasured delicacy.

I am now satisfied with my relationships. My man and my lady.
They haven't met and yet respect eachother.
Now I will turn away from others soul-seeking connections.

I need friends, I need family.

I have my mates.
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