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Sorry. Fatuous thing to say, really
10 years ago
I seem to be having this tremendous difficulty with my lifestyle.
So, I packed away my Waccom tablet last weekend. aaaaand i'm feeling kinda weird about it, to be honest.
it's not that i'm "giving up drawing" or anything. it more just that I don't have the time to draw anymore. and, perhaps more worrying, I don't really have the motivation anymore.
Having an audience was always a big part of the fun of drawing, for me. but these days I find myself with social circle that's basically non-existent. People i've known for years have drifted away to the point that only 3 people actually asked if I was ok, after being attacked a few months back.
but anyway....
I've not drawn a damn thing in almost a year and my tablet has just been gathering dust; always ready to go (photoshop loaded and everything) but never used.
aaaand it's just kinda driving home that I don't know what i'm doing anymore. all I seem to do is work, commute, go to the gym, and sleep (badly).
i've been in this depressive slump for along time now and i'm not sure what to do about it. It feels like there's less and less of me to do anything about it.
sooo,. yeah,... tablet is packed away. maybe i'll put it on ebay or something in a few months. we'll see how I feel.
I need a fucking holiday.
So, I packed away my Waccom tablet last weekend. aaaaand i'm feeling kinda weird about it, to be honest.
it's not that i'm "giving up drawing" or anything. it more just that I don't have the time to draw anymore. and, perhaps more worrying, I don't really have the motivation anymore.
Having an audience was always a big part of the fun of drawing, for me. but these days I find myself with social circle that's basically non-existent. People i've known for years have drifted away to the point that only 3 people actually asked if I was ok, after being attacked a few months back.
but anyway....
I've not drawn a damn thing in almost a year and my tablet has just been gathering dust; always ready to go (photoshop loaded and everything) but never used.
aaaand it's just kinda driving home that I don't know what i'm doing anymore. all I seem to do is work, commute, go to the gym, and sleep (badly).
i've been in this depressive slump for along time now and i'm not sure what to do about it. It feels like there's less and less of me to do anything about it.
sooo,. yeah,... tablet is packed away. maybe i'll put it on ebay or something in a few months. we'll see how I feel.
I need a fucking holiday.
Though as to being an artist, I think one of the hardest things to do is to "let go". I say this in the sense that you spend hours, days, weeks, years building up your skill level and you constantly feel the need to keep on improving, to keep on getting better; to make sure the next piece you do out does the previous, and it's hard to let go of that mentality. It's hard to let go despite it makes doing art harder to do and far more time consuming. For me at least that's what contributes to my own personal burn outs. Ultimately it should be something you should do for yourself, and for fun; doing art to be 'awesome' is exhausting.
You and pretty much everyone else, missed it.
Including all the people who definitely DID see it (isn't web analytic data great?)
but,.. yeah,... all that is a massive downer on many levels.
Does that make sense? If something cool or fun happens, I'm just not as excited.
You've made some of my old favorites in furry art and I'd just like to say thanks for putting it out there. And, once again, I hope things get better for you.
I once took 2 months off art all together, it was refreshing.