It's been only getting worse though =c

But thanks for your kind words anyways, and thanks for caring too

been suffering with my own troubles from 13 up...but there is always light don't worry

Yeah, I know you've been going through a lot too. I know I'm not the only one ><

I am an aspie and I definitely know what it is to be instantly hated by people. It's remarkable how quickly it happens. If only they had the slightest clue how horrible they make me feel. But they always seem too busy having an easy time of it socially to let such things cross their minds.

There are times I just want to have a little fun with anyone, and it kills me that I simply can't. I am 51 and I've never found a solution for depression aside from this weak advice: try to stay positive and look for any distraction that will give you some relief. Do any little thing that makes you feel better as the opportunities arise, and take all the good feeling from it you can. Cease judging yourself. Set aside as many responsibilities as you can.

"But they always seem too busy having an easy time of it socially to let such things cross their minds." - This is exactly how I feel. They're always having fun with their "normal" friends to give a damn about me. I'm talking about furries here, not normal people... The local furry fandom on the state that I was born hates me and they even "invited" me to leave. This is one of the main reasons that I moved. I was the first furry on my city, waited in pain for about 3 years for another furry to appear and be my friend over there, and yet they did this to me.

I try to be positive as much as I can, but it's just that it's not easy.. Like, when a lot of things are going wrong in my life it's really hard. I'm going to college now, I'm almost 21 (will be on a couple of days). At first, I thought that it would distract me from all my problems, but turns out the pressure is too much for me to deal with, even if I'm getting good grades in the end.