I'm not one to talk a lot about my health because it's a very personal thing, however recently my health has become so bad on a seemingly permanent level that I feel I owe it to you guys to be open about it because I've suddenly fallen off the earth.

For the last couple of months my muscle pains have been getting increasingly worse. What I mean by muscle pains is the feeling one normally gets when working out and the muscle stiffness the next day. For me it's not in one place but all over and in particular my legs. It's so bad in my feet in the morning that I can barely walk, I kind of stumble. On top of that I have joint pain, a fever and literally all my lymph nodes in my body are swollen and hurt like a bitch.

I've had all these issues in the past but never have I experienced a flare up so bad and for as long as this one. I got various tests done on me around four years ago because the doctors didn't know what it was. Something about my auto immune system and the possibility of it being lymphoma. Of course you never want to hear it may be cancer and you need to keep an eye on the symptoms. Of course before all this stuff triggered I found some unusual growth that I require to get checked.

I've moved country so I can't go to the specialists I've seen then, instead I'm waiting for the option to even see a doctor to help me out.

On top of it all it couldn't have started at a worse time because this is my last week at my old job, starting my new one next week and essentially I'm so exhausted and in pain all the time that I can't get myself to draw. My apologies for that...

Tl;dr I'm really fucking sick and it may be more serious than I originally thought. Sorry for the lack of updates.