Staring out a window looking at my past
seeing bad and good but that smile just never lasts
faking half my laughs some fun here and there
life has been so tough but yet I made it here
just finding myself in an endless pit of disrepair
I crawled and I climbed trying to make it out there
working very hard my life almost had meaning then it came crashing down

now I'm here bleeding out on the floor
barely breathing I don't want to live anymore
I tried so hard and go nowhere
falling drowning darkness in my soul
I hope you will forgive me one day
but today I go away

depression growing stronger bad luck closing in
anxiety ahead and nothing I can change
I needed help and that I knew
no money and no life as I sit there in my hospital chair
I never knew it be like this
my life long goals now gone I wish things could change
I always hoped for a better day it never came and so I'm here

now I'm here bleeding out on the floor
barely breathing I don't want to live anymore
I tried so hard and go nowhere
falling drowning darkness in my soul
I hope you will forgive me one day
but today I go away

i hated it so much and man it hurt
you gave me hope but not enough
I loved you and I always will
I know you'll hate me cause I'm broken
I tried to win but I just lost
these games where never my strength
I'm sorry I hope you forgive me some day

now I'm here bleeding out on the floor
barely breathing I don't want to live anymore
I tried so hard and go nowhere
falling drowning darkness in my soul
I hope you will forgive me one day
but today I go away