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Just.... owie.
10 years ago
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In school I never studied. If I couldn't finish homework at school it wasn't done. I averaged a B type score. Then high school. The effects of being bullied all the time produced stress that wrecked my immune system, it still does. Had to drop out. Took 2-3 years to recover, natural stuff and Vitamin C everyday, letting it rebuild. High school was over and I didn't want to go back to that. Went job hunting, no diploma, so you can guess the results.
So I went and applied for the GED, then forgot about it. Got the letter in the mail to go take it. Didn't study. The card I have from the scores just has numbers for the testing, doesn't say which is which but from 1 -> 5 I got 53, 77, 77, 99, 73. So I had a brain. Went out job hunting again. By this time I had put out hundreds of apps, 3 interviews. Now I had a GED, could not wait to hit the interviews. Even went to a new job help place that had opened in town. Turned stuff I did, like recycling cans collected along the road, into at home job titles.
Couple years later, hundreds of applications, 1 Interview. Severe depression. I stopped applying, under depression I just no longer had the drive. I had to stop can hunting. Some mexicans with trucks took over my routes in a force of 5. 1 person drove the other four took both sides of the street in both directions. My bro had a woman he worked for, he was moving to michigan and passed the word to her about me. Got some decent work and pay from her. 6 months later she moved to a town 40 miles away. Needed the place repainted. Last job for me. Painting inside of every room, walls and cieling. Painting the roof caused one of the disks in my back to squish. Didn't know it at the time. It basically removed all jobs with the requirement of hours on your feet or lifting 50 lbs.
I'm 40 years old, 5 interviews, lost count of applications. Damaged back. No work history. If it wasn't for awesome parents I would be ... dead. I couldn't survive homeless.
I'm out of ideas and the stuff I see about people wanting stuff like food support cut breaks me out in a cold sweat. I live in California.
Help.
So I went and applied for the GED, then forgot about it. Got the letter in the mail to go take it. Didn't study. The card I have from the scores just has numbers for the testing, doesn't say which is which but from 1 -> 5 I got 53, 77, 77, 99, 73. So I had a brain. Went out job hunting again. By this time I had put out hundreds of apps, 3 interviews. Now I had a GED, could not wait to hit the interviews. Even went to a new job help place that had opened in town. Turned stuff I did, like recycling cans collected along the road, into at home job titles.
Couple years later, hundreds of applications, 1 Interview. Severe depression. I stopped applying, under depression I just no longer had the drive. I had to stop can hunting. Some mexicans with trucks took over my routes in a force of 5. 1 person drove the other four took both sides of the street in both directions. My bro had a woman he worked for, he was moving to michigan and passed the word to her about me. Got some decent work and pay from her. 6 months later she moved to a town 40 miles away. Needed the place repainted. Last job for me. Painting inside of every room, walls and cieling. Painting the roof caused one of the disks in my back to squish. Didn't know it at the time. It basically removed all jobs with the requirement of hours on your feet or lifting 50 lbs.
I'm 40 years old, 5 interviews, lost count of applications. Damaged back. No work history. If it wasn't for awesome parents I would be ... dead. I couldn't survive homeless.
I'm out of ideas and the stuff I see about people wanting stuff like food support cut breaks me out in a cold sweat. I live in California.
Help.
janglur
~janglur
If I had any answers, i'd share. But I don't. I'm much more qualified, but much less healthy, and having just as hard of a time. It's an endless road of attempting to improve myself in the hopes that, someday, i'll be good enough to just live.
