-sits in bed hugging my knees as tears stream down my cheeks-why is it i am the one that is the most affected by it. im the youngest and she was older the older than me.i cant really deal with this depression. my sister passer awayin 09 and has affected me ever since...-ears lower-i miss her ever day. why am i forsaken and she dies we both had cancer and i live she doesnt. why god why didnt you fucking take me instead. your not real god you dont exist-covers my face and cries hard-