So... I'm leaving Texas for now... I'm going to Alaska to live with one of my grandparents and look for a job that apparently isn't with Asians, or at a bar... or too rough, or too much dealing with people... Yeah... my last job was pretty fucking cushy. Good pay, not too many benefits, lots of sitting around, lots of rarely actually dealing with money or people, just cleaning and moving stuff around, and I fucking cried and sobbed on my very last shift. I loved working there, even at the worst of times, which might usually mean dealing with drunk coworkers, and being confused because the cook said one thing and the other staff said another thing, but I got through those annoying times and had a good time, able to drown out my world in music as I worked. I could organize dirty dishes in MINUTES to soak in soapy water in a couple of minutes of walking in the door, and then have all that shit done at my own little leisurely pace. Or I'd be pressed to have those dishes DONE for the parties coming in that night, and I LOVED It. I REVELED in it, to pump to the music and get that shit done, and done WELL. Cook needed a pot cleaned? Cleaned at my own leisure or cleaned at the drop of a hat and re-readied for her use in 20 minutes of hard scrubbing the shit out of the pot!

Now... I'll be living with "Crazy Cat Lady" grandma for a month, if I don't end up going crazy and buying a ticket for myself out of there... Hell, I'd sleep in the lobby of the airport if it meant getting away from this bitch if things go sour! I have love interests here in Texas, and a job that I could come back to at the drop of a hat! Or I'll be going to Atlanta where a friend assures me of a job within a week at a warehouse with someone he used to work with and a place to stay to put my computer and shit! Yeah... I'm not even to Alaska yet, and I'm already bitching about a grandmother I haven't SEEN, much less talked to, in roughly a decade... A grandmother with no sense of understanding that I'm not always right in the head... Will there be "murder in the kitchen with the razor knife?" Or will I not go crazy? NEXT TIME, on .... Hawks' life and bitching of unreasonable relatives!