I can feel my hope for my art slipping away. It almost feels like something physical... like I'm becoming numb and sluggish. I've been completely and entirely uninspired for a long time now. And I tried muscling through it with a "don't break the chain" thing, but that's garbage. There is no chain. It's not a tangible thing. It only exists because I pretend it does. And everything I made while trying that crap ended up looking like shit and I scrapped it all... because it wouldn't be worth keeping or showing. And I don't like drawing without having something to show for it. Or else I feel like I'm wasting time, I'm wasting energy, and I'm wasting materials. I thought maybe it was time to finally give up on drawing for a moment earlier today, and my friend even said "if it's causing you this pain, it might be a good idea". That's horseshit. It doesn't pain me, it just makes me unhappy that I'm letting my skills waste away. And if I gave up... I would definitely feel regret... I'd feel unsatisfied. I already know it'd be foolish to give it up, but I'm not sure what to do with myself to occupy my art time and my mind... wish someone would give me something to do. But I am not about to open up requests. I already have QnAs stalled in queue. That didn't work out well, and that was like requests, sorta...