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Post RF report and life update (long post)
10 years ago
Its been a while since I really updated on anything, seeing as I am home from RF and am winding down, may as well take a moment to do such.
RF I feel was part of what I needed as of late, a big furry nut house party full of energy and art and suits and porn and such. That being said, this year was still a bit more low-key for me, I spent much of my time seeking out only a small handful of furry and scaly friends and tried to get to know them better and really mingle rather than be Mr Party Dragon. Pretty much in line with how I have been for the last year. I really enjoyed myself in that regard, sitting with some chill friends talking and joking the night away aided by gin and whisky, perhaps a cuddle to two. Just that alone was what really made the con for me cause I have been dying for that kinda socializing and chillness.
I also got out and suited quite a bit, trying out some new wings I got which was more or less a trial run of their design. Picked up a few cool things at the dealers den but was kinda let down at the assortment of artists and vendors this year, seemed less than it usually is so I didn't actually buy a lot like I was expecting.
There were also some less than stellar happenings at the con, which honestly did leave me face palming at a particular demographic of furries and their supporters. I could say a LOT here, but I will simply say this.. Careful how hard you swing in a fight... you might just miss and in doing so damage the very thing you were trying to protect.
Now for my general life~~~~
As far as the furry scene goes, I have kinda scaled back on local-ish involvements. I had too many frustrations/disappointments that were getting the better of me and I kept feeling as if I had to constantly hide who I was. i was aware that the deeper dragon stuff would just never really be 100% accepted or understood (really rough since thats a nigh inseparable part of myself that I will not throw away for 15 mins of popularity), but by the time it started reaching the level that even the watered down Furry-Drake was becoming too extreme of a person to be.. I had to bail for the sake of my sanity.
This time has also been taken as a moment to try and re-invent myself and figure out where I progress from here in this massive social melting pot of furries, otherkin, fans, party bros, and weekenders. The over sexual reputation isn't serving me like it use to and while I do what I do and like what I like. I take no pleasure in being the scapegoat or strawman of prudish types who need someone to take shots at. I kind of see this as a mistake on my part, being too open around the wrong kind of people and leaving myself too open because I wanted to try and be likable. Not saying I am gonna embrace "furry-death" (being who I am I am gonna take a leap here and say that is impossible) but its gonna be a while to find my new balance and if that balance keeps me in this same social boat, of if I simply start retracing my roots and spend more time focusing on the things that are deeply important to me. Things that are not cheap and fleeting.
Health wise I have been on and off some workout routines and trying various supplements.. Frankly this IT job is kicking my ass in terms of any physical activity and even trying to be conscience of what I eat at work hasn't helped much cause my home life is kinda scattered. Combine that with some knee injuries and you got one dragon who is having a difficult time trying to keep decently active. I gotta try and commit to something diet and exercise wise. Been thinking about breakfast shakes, daily walks and weight lifting routines, but I am one of those guys who tends to need encouragement to do said things. >.=.>
As for the rest like art, games, spirituality, work etc. They have all been going honestly fairly steads, work is so-so, will see where that goes in the next year honestly, and if I wanna be IT for the long haul. Art, now that ones been a bit more interesting since my style change! Its seemed to get a bit more notice than usual which kinda helps with not feeling totally ignored on it. Plus! My art actually made it into a scalies panel at RF, I was super stoked over that! ^.=.^ . Regarding spirituality, well my time alone has been more spent in meditation and really journaling a lotta things, thoughts and feelings I have had regarding more personal things. Kinda like making my own road map of where I am been, what I am doing and where I want to be. I have been seeking out the better of the dragons I know in this regard to kinda keep me on track, hold me to my words, and lend an ear and a voice on such deeper and more personal matters. I can't say I am where I want to be right now, but I feel I am progressing towards being more of the real me, and the support and understanding of those close to me means a lot over these last years. You know who you are and I thank you for all our talks and our hangouts and even just having a couple drinks and a good ol time! ^.=.^
Wingfire out!
RF I feel was part of what I needed as of late, a big furry nut house party full of energy and art and suits and porn and such. That being said, this year was still a bit more low-key for me, I spent much of my time seeking out only a small handful of furry and scaly friends and tried to get to know them better and really mingle rather than be Mr Party Dragon. Pretty much in line with how I have been for the last year. I really enjoyed myself in that regard, sitting with some chill friends talking and joking the night away aided by gin and whisky, perhaps a cuddle to two. Just that alone was what really made the con for me cause I have been dying for that kinda socializing and chillness.
I also got out and suited quite a bit, trying out some new wings I got which was more or less a trial run of their design. Picked up a few cool things at the dealers den but was kinda let down at the assortment of artists and vendors this year, seemed less than it usually is so I didn't actually buy a lot like I was expecting.
There were also some less than stellar happenings at the con, which honestly did leave me face palming at a particular demographic of furries and their supporters. I could say a LOT here, but I will simply say this.. Careful how hard you swing in a fight... you might just miss and in doing so damage the very thing you were trying to protect.
Now for my general life~~~~
As far as the furry scene goes, I have kinda scaled back on local-ish involvements. I had too many frustrations/disappointments that were getting the better of me and I kept feeling as if I had to constantly hide who I was. i was aware that the deeper dragon stuff would just never really be 100% accepted or understood (really rough since thats a nigh inseparable part of myself that I will not throw away for 15 mins of popularity), but by the time it started reaching the level that even the watered down Furry-Drake was becoming too extreme of a person to be.. I had to bail for the sake of my sanity.
This time has also been taken as a moment to try and re-invent myself and figure out where I progress from here in this massive social melting pot of furries, otherkin, fans, party bros, and weekenders. The over sexual reputation isn't serving me like it use to and while I do what I do and like what I like. I take no pleasure in being the scapegoat or strawman of prudish types who need someone to take shots at. I kind of see this as a mistake on my part, being too open around the wrong kind of people and leaving myself too open because I wanted to try and be likable. Not saying I am gonna embrace "furry-death" (being who I am I am gonna take a leap here and say that is impossible) but its gonna be a while to find my new balance and if that balance keeps me in this same social boat, of if I simply start retracing my roots and spend more time focusing on the things that are deeply important to me. Things that are not cheap and fleeting.
Health wise I have been on and off some workout routines and trying various supplements.. Frankly this IT job is kicking my ass in terms of any physical activity and even trying to be conscience of what I eat at work hasn't helped much cause my home life is kinda scattered. Combine that with some knee injuries and you got one dragon who is having a difficult time trying to keep decently active. I gotta try and commit to something diet and exercise wise. Been thinking about breakfast shakes, daily walks and weight lifting routines, but I am one of those guys who tends to need encouragement to do said things. >.=.>
As for the rest like art, games, spirituality, work etc. They have all been going honestly fairly steads, work is so-so, will see where that goes in the next year honestly, and if I wanna be IT for the long haul. Art, now that ones been a bit more interesting since my style change! Its seemed to get a bit more notice than usual which kinda helps with not feeling totally ignored on it. Plus! My art actually made it into a scalies panel at RF, I was super stoked over that! ^.=.^ . Regarding spirituality, well my time alone has been more spent in meditation and really journaling a lotta things, thoughts and feelings I have had regarding more personal things. Kinda like making my own road map of where I am been, what I am doing and where I want to be. I have been seeking out the better of the dragons I know in this regard to kinda keep me on track, hold me to my words, and lend an ear and a voice on such deeper and more personal matters. I can't say I am where I want to be right now, but I feel I am progressing towards being more of the real me, and the support and understanding of those close to me means a lot over these last years. You know who you are and I thank you for all our talks and our hangouts and even just having a couple drinks and a good ol time! ^.=.^
Wingfire out!
My opinion anyways.
I might be breaking more these next year. I realized 8 years of my life passed way to quick...
Without knowing the context, I'll just say that peer pressure can be positive as well as negative. It really depends on what you yourself want. And perhaps having a bit of the gut feeling into what's good & what's bad.
I wouldn't have discovered the enjoyment of conventions if not for a bit of 'peer pressure'. Well, I might have spend an amount of savings traveling, but I've met a lot of people that way. I think it's a good tradeoff =p