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Where has the time gone?
10 years ago
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OMG THANKS FOR READING THIS!!! ;w;
Has it really been 5 months since i posted a journal? Jeez...
I mean it makes sense when not many pepople take so much as a glance at them, but still..
Have i really been so innactive? Its kinda funny, and sort of sad at the same time.
I guess i've fallen out a bit from the creative scene. I used to be so bubbly and raring to draw anything and everything i could think of, but now...im not so sure.
It's like that part of me has been all but completely snuffed out. I never have the motivation to just sit and draw whatever is on my mind. And yet, i still save pictures for referrences. I still think of ideas for future pieces id like to draw someday, but whenever i sit down to my sketchpad, all i can think of is how honestly im just not that great...
I hate to say that, i really truly do, but i just dont feel that creative spark anymore. That, drive to impress those who inspired me in the first place. Artistically..i feel broken; a shell of my former self.
I miss that child who would draw, and then eagerly show his friend, someone he adored in the artist world, and see what he would say. What he could improve on...
But that friend is gone. He and the child split apart, both going in seperate directions...
I miss that child...and the friend who meant to much to me.....
Sure i have drawn a piece here and there and the feedback i received was and always is much appreciated, but i just dont see much point to it these days, and that thought terrifies me...
What if that happens with other things i am passionate about? Voice Acting, Singing, Cooking, Gaming...what if one after another they all just fade into obscurity? The only real answer i can come up with right now is...
"I dont know"
Anyway, sorry for the emotional dump. I guess i just let loose a bit.
Being a downer isnt like me anyway.
I still love art. I love being a part of the furry fandom. I still love being who I am now..
I just wish i could bring that old creative spark that I once had back.
I'm still gonna fight on though! Determined to get further than where i was before. Set a new course for my art to take!
TL;DR
I havent drawn in forever, emotional stuff, IM BACK BITCHES
I mean it makes sense when not many pepople take so much as a glance at them, but still..
Have i really been so innactive? Its kinda funny, and sort of sad at the same time.
I guess i've fallen out a bit from the creative scene. I used to be so bubbly and raring to draw anything and everything i could think of, but now...im not so sure.
It's like that part of me has been all but completely snuffed out. I never have the motivation to just sit and draw whatever is on my mind. And yet, i still save pictures for referrences. I still think of ideas for future pieces id like to draw someday, but whenever i sit down to my sketchpad, all i can think of is how honestly im just not that great...
I hate to say that, i really truly do, but i just dont feel that creative spark anymore. That, drive to impress those who inspired me in the first place. Artistically..i feel broken; a shell of my former self.
I miss that child who would draw, and then eagerly show his friend, someone he adored in the artist world, and see what he would say. What he could improve on...
But that friend is gone. He and the child split apart, both going in seperate directions...
I miss that child...and the friend who meant to much to me.....
Sure i have drawn a piece here and there and the feedback i received was and always is much appreciated, but i just dont see much point to it these days, and that thought terrifies me...
What if that happens with other things i am passionate about? Voice Acting, Singing, Cooking, Gaming...what if one after another they all just fade into obscurity? The only real answer i can come up with right now is...
"I dont know"
Anyway, sorry for the emotional dump. I guess i just let loose a bit.
Being a downer isnt like me anyway.
I still love art. I love being a part of the furry fandom. I still love being who I am now..
I just wish i could bring that old creative spark that I once had back.
I'm still gonna fight on though! Determined to get further than where i was before. Set a new course for my art to take!
TL;DR
I havent drawn in forever, emotional stuff, IM BACK BITCHES
Qwin
~qwin
<3 hun
