the main cause of myself feeling down is that people don't notice me a lot. What i mean by that is i want to be popular but not so popular where furs take everything i say and heavily analyze it, but popular enough that when i post something, people take notice. It pisses me off when my friends post a picture that was drawn by a popular artist and they get as many views and favs as the artists themselves, but when i post a picture (that i'm in) that was drawn from the same artist, nobody looks at it that much. It mainly has to do with the fact that i don't have the money to be constantly paying for artists to draw pictures of me because most of the time, if a certain fur is in a lot of pictures from a certain artist, he/she starts to be popular. Also my true definition of a friend is someone who cares about me and sometimes talks to me first than the other way around (which is something i had to keep doing as almost none of my friends have talked to me first). It's that reasoning that i question if the friends i have right now are truly my best friends or not.