I didn't exactly leave FA. I've just been lurking and watching stuff. And I've been considering active posts again, which I guess this journal qualifies as.

Anyway, I've been pretty good about the porn lately. I just don't look at it near as much as I used to, and the binges don't last as long. Plus, it's not always FA that's the source (I still have to go through the hassle of flipping my answer to "yes" on viewing adult submissions), so I may be able to come back and be part of the community a little, maybe encourage and nurture some folks. I mean, I'm on the internet already; might as well do some good here.

Least I left with as little drama as possible. I'm sure someone could still use this as a way to smear me, or hurt me if they wanted. "Oh, so you never really left! You just wanted attention, like all the other emo idiots!" Which, in all honesty, is a lie. I left because of personal struggles with the adult content on this site, which is still on-going. And although I do want attention, I'm starting to grow up a little... and I want to help others here grow into their potential. Who knows? A few people may even meet Jesus through me, which I'd consider the greatest honor possible.

In any case, I doubt I'm noticeable enough for someone to accuse me of trying to garner attention. Satan might slip a whisper into my head, but I've been fighting that jerk since grade school. I know his tricks. And I can take more pain. What I can't bear, I'll give to God. And that makes me stronger.

So, I'll give it a whirl perhaps. And we'll see what develops.