I've not been sleeping. Despite wonderful cool, rainy sleeping weather. One of my dogs is terrified of thunder, and sadly has such powerful hearing that she hears them ALL for miles.

I do my best to calm her, but nothing much works, thundershirt didn't work. Some medicines didn't work, I need to see the vet about it and get her something stronger I guess.

I just am so tired of her fear. I do my best with her, and it feels like I'm being punished for actually you know loving a dog I didn't ask for.

She was a dog my ex wife wanted, and when we divorced didn't even mention reclaiming, as the dog was with my mom at the time as our apartment could only accept two, and well my family had wanted to keep one of the big dogs, and she loved my dad--but my dad passed away in 2012 so she had no one, and my wife even talked me out of getting her and bringing her to our new place when my best friend--my Great Dane died in 2013. Instead we got ANOTHER dog, who well, I know loves me and appreciate me, but this one? She's just so standoffish, and needy at the same time.

I do my best but I'm worn thin from the lack of sleep and dealing with her trying to climb me with her claws like a cat.

And she's 70+lbs of dog, with very sharp claws for a dog. I've never seen one with claws as sharp as hers.