I've always hated feeling left out, to the point where I'd say it was one of my worst fears. Actually, I don't like being alone in general.

Sometimes I'd just imagine waking up one day and finding out that everyone I'd ever known and loved have forgotten about me, leaving me all alone.

I mean, I never really paid attention to it before. Back in high school, I didn't mind it at all. I actually liked being all by myself. But now... I just hated it. Not just being alone, but feeling alone too. I don't have that many friends, and to those few who are, I never really get the chance to talk with them much. Most days I'd just find myself alone. Of course, I enjoy it and do whatever I like doing whenever those times come. But on some occasions, I get left with an empty feeling. And that feeling comes a lot, at the most random times.

Sometimes I'd just lay down and imagine what it'd be like actually having friends, hanging out with them and doing stuff. It's something so simple to a lot of people, but to me... it's something so far off and not likely to happen. Ever.