Little update things are not any better really.
10 years ago
Dont really know what to say this is likely gonna be a lot shorter than the previous one just some things came to mind thought I would talk about them as it usually does help me out. In the last few weeks I have made a few friends and some really nice people out there.
What a lot of people don't seem to realise is quite often than not use my fursona to hide a lot of who I really am, I have had a lot of people hurt me past, present and even likely in the future so I stay hidden. When I become more and more comfortable with a person I start to come out of my shell, I open up, tell them things about me that they didn't know and so many times than not those "assumingly" nice people just delete you out of nowhere, calling you a liar...telling you how much of an asshole you are for not being truthful about everything from day 1. Just wish people could sit down and.. you know think about it a little bit and understand that I hurt and maybe comfort me.. understand why I am like that and continue to build the friendship instead of jumping away and disappearing at the first chance that they get.
I really am not a bad person once you get to know me.. if you even try to get to know me truly.
What a lot of people don't seem to realise is quite often than not use my fursona to hide a lot of who I really am, I have had a lot of people hurt me past, present and even likely in the future so I stay hidden. When I become more and more comfortable with a person I start to come out of my shell, I open up, tell them things about me that they didn't know and so many times than not those "assumingly" nice people just delete you out of nowhere, calling you a liar...telling you how much of an asshole you are for not being truthful about everything from day 1. Just wish people could sit down and.. you know think about it a little bit and understand that I hurt and maybe comfort me.. understand why I am like that and continue to build the friendship instead of jumping away and disappearing at the first chance that they get.
I really am not a bad person once you get to know me.. if you even try to get to know me truly.
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In today's increasingly specialized society, it can be a pretty small percentage of people that one might get along with. Let's just say 1 out of 10. Totally arbitrary number.
Well if you have to to get to know someone twice over, then you face a multiplication of that number. Now you're at 1 out of 100. Sure, it might not be a total reboot, but at the same time, a lot of people can feel distrustful of someone who wasn't honest with them, even if for innocent reasons.
Sometimes it's best just to take the flak for being who you are to start with. You may have fewer friends at any given moment, but you'll have a much better chance of them being truly your friends.