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Migraines and Mental Illness. (VENTY/ update)
10 years ago
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Well. I've been meaning to make a journal about this for a long time now. I normally don't like to vent like this, or speak of such things. I have in the past, and didn't like how it made me feel... but, because I sort of feel I need to explain myself, in the areas of my being so distant sometimes, not replying for ages, etc, I'm going to try to.
As, well, impossible to believe as it may seem to those who've encountered me, heard my crazy sense of humor and voice, etc, — I've got some *extremely* bad depression, anxiety, social anxiety, and other things. I also have lots of migraines, have VERY FREAKING BAD fibro myalgia, am exhausted all the time, have nightmares every night, have insomnia, and the tendonitis in my entire right arm and shoulder and wrist and hand isn't going away, and still hurts really badly. This is the hand I draw with.
And these issues have been flaring up horribly for a long time now. Recently, it's been a lot worse.
The toxic mix of all this illness and pain has made it extremely hard to keep up with people, with comments, with notes... All of it. I feel so incredibly... tired... all the time. And, there are a few people I've gotten out of contact with as a result of these things, and just the insanely fast pace of life and online life, and me overwhelmed always, struggling to keep up.... For those couple people, I want to say I am sorry.
I'm sorry I've been slow to reply on notes, on comments, if I wind up doing it at all. It may sound stupid or lame, but I'm having a lot of trouble finding the energy to do these things. Having social anxiety / mental issues, makes it waaaay more taxing than it should be.
I am trying to recover and improve, but it's rough right now, to say the least. I just want you all to know that I MASSIVELY appreciate all the views, the faves, the watches, and those lovely comments. All the support you all give on my silly artwork is amazing, and I truly appreciate it. I appreciate the friends I've made, the help people have given, thank you all so very much.
I hope you all had a very happy and safe Halloween. And, I might end up deleting this journal if I wake up in the morning and go "WTF did I do!?" But we will see.
Stay happy, stay furry~
As, well, impossible to believe as it may seem to those who've encountered me, heard my crazy sense of humor and voice, etc, — I've got some *extremely* bad depression, anxiety, social anxiety, and other things. I also have lots of migraines, have VERY FREAKING BAD fibro myalgia, am exhausted all the time, have nightmares every night, have insomnia, and the tendonitis in my entire right arm and shoulder and wrist and hand isn't going away, and still hurts really badly. This is the hand I draw with.
And these issues have been flaring up horribly for a long time now. Recently, it's been a lot worse.
The toxic mix of all this illness and pain has made it extremely hard to keep up with people, with comments, with notes... All of it. I feel so incredibly... tired... all the time. And, there are a few people I've gotten out of contact with as a result of these things, and just the insanely fast pace of life and online life, and me overwhelmed always, struggling to keep up.... For those couple people, I want to say I am sorry.
I'm sorry I've been slow to reply on notes, on comments, if I wind up doing it at all. It may sound stupid or lame, but I'm having a lot of trouble finding the energy to do these things. Having social anxiety / mental issues, makes it waaaay more taxing than it should be.
I am trying to recover and improve, but it's rough right now, to say the least. I just want you all to know that I MASSIVELY appreciate all the views, the faves, the watches, and those lovely comments. All the support you all give on my silly artwork is amazing, and I truly appreciate it. I appreciate the friends I've made, the help people have given, thank you all so very much.
I hope you all had a very happy and safe Halloween. And, I might end up deleting this journal if I wake up in the morning and go "WTF did I do!?" But we will see.
Stay happy, stay furry~
I have Generalized Anxiety disorder so I take medicine for it and it helped greatly, I also see a counselor monthly, I hope that info helps you
Do you know if any of the mental things are seasonally related? I always get the blues in fall. Maybe up sunlight and exercise? That helps me a lot.
I hope you feel better.
I can't imagine what it is like to have what you are dealing with right now. Just reading about all of this makes me wish nothing but the best for you. Honestly. I really hope you find someone or some kind of program that can help you on what you are battling with. It may not come now, within several weeks, or even a year's time, but I hope help comes to you so you can deal with this.
Stay strong Hungo and if you need a break to better yourself, do so. I am sure the people who are looking up to you right now would understand that you need a break in order to deal with this.
You have lots and lots of friends on here J :D and you're artwork isn't silly its very sexuuuuuuuu
If there's anything you need J, just ask :3c Take care for now
Anyway, I wish you a sound recovery, I truly believe you are quite deserving of it.
Stay strong :D
I really hope you can get trough it, going to a doc or seeing some meds to ease your pain and all. You're an awesome dude, try staying positive :)
I want to chat with you better on skype when i find you online XD Don't even need to be the problems if you don't want, chatting is great to distract the mind from all that sometimes :3
It's kinda strange that quite a few people out here are writing journals about mental illness around here in the last weeks. It's not only you.
I have made myself some theories about things like that relating to the furry phenomenon in general. I'm in therapy currently because of that issue too. I don't know how you will handle this. But recovering just alone is a bad solution in general. The worse it gets the more you should consider speaking to relatives or IRL friends. Or even better consider psychotherapy. It took me 6 years of depression to finally decide to do it. If I only had these thoughts earlier.