This journal is a bit of a vent and propably some stuff i'm just saying wihtout fuly meaning it and stuff.. i don't usually talk to people about my problems and i keep them to myself, but sometimes it hurts so much that i have to put somewhere. I don't wanna sound like a drama queen and also don't wanna bother anyone, so if you are botered by depressing/angry stuff, don't read this...

"Why do furries have to ruin everything", "why can't they just leave the things i like alone",
"furries are just a bunch of disgusting freaks"

Pardon my french, but to all of you who agree to this, SHUT THE FUCK UP!
Holy salamander-cuttlefish, i've heard this my entire time since i've joined the fandom, and some of these lines were spoken by people who make money out of selling drawing on furaffinity! Some drawing are even yiff bating!!??
What hurts even more is that i've heard some people i really care about and love speak that to my face...
Can't you see i'm happy this way? I like the fandom, why can't you leave me alone and go on with your life?

I'm in extremely agony these past few days because i don't feel loved and acepted by anyone, the fandom is the only place i feel at home and in piece, here i can be both a furry and genderfluid without any worries, but then i get all kinds of furry hate like a slap to my face!

All my life i've been trying to be good to everyone and wish every single person well, regardless of her skin color, gender, sexuality, ideals, religion, i'm not against anyone and i'm always here to help everyone i care about
So why? Did i deserve this? I just wanna know what the heck have i done wrong to have to endure all of this?
I am now aware that i'm more alone in my real life than i've always been. People don't know how much this hurts, it is a friggin big deal to me...

I'm tired of this, i'm tired of being a martir.