But I'm not exactly suicidal
I just wish I could stop existing for a while.
I dread work constantly and my brain likes to loop " I'd rather die" or " I want to die" over and over and over.

The worst part is knowing that I have to go in tomorrow and she is just going to yell "chica" at me over and over and I'm going to have to sit there through hubby's shift because the schedule is weird.

I'm still sick and I think it might be getting worse idk

I really hate my life right now, I just want to stay at home and craft but no one is ever happy to with that. I can't do what I want, I'm not allowed. I'm never good enough. Hubby is ok with me doing what I want but he doesn't make enough to support us yet because what I can want will be slow to take off.

I feel like I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place :<