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Depression is a Bitch and I've been dealing with it.
10 years ago
Ever since before my birthday Oct 29th. I've been dealing with depression, it had gotten so bad that I didn't even want to work on my legos, and I LOVE my legos!
I stopped getting on my computer, stopped checking this, stopped responding to text messages, pretty much I shut down and shut off from the world.
It's going on day three, three days in a row (btw) that I've not felt like I couldn't lift my head, that everything was closing in around me and ripping me apart while trying to suffocate me at the same time. It's been a solid three days of feeling actually positive!!!!!!!!!!
I'm not going to try to overwhelm myself, but I do plan to work on some back due art.
It will be smaller things and if I am still feeling good I'll move on to the bigger pieces.
This DOES NOT MEAN I am open to take on more work.
I know I had a few people note me and ask about ref sheets, adopts, YCHS. Please those who asked, keep me in mind for future work, once I am 100% back and I have cleaned up my back log of work I will open!
I also want to thank the people that have com'd me, and have been waiting for me to finish. I'm thanking you, for not bugging at me non stop, and being understanding with my problem.
I do plan on seeing a doctor about this, but I've got lots of hoops to jump through before that can happen. Aka I have medicaid so I get to try and find a therapist that works with that, OR one that works with people that are unemployed. I know where I live, they are out there it's just hard to find them, get an appointment made (aka couple I called had NOTHING open for MONTHS) some weren't taking new patients etc. It's a biiiiiitch.
and I won't lie I reached a point in my depression where I actually thought about going to the Hospital and checking myself in, and I do mean the nut hospital, in case that's a what? Because I know some states have regular hospitals that have wards for mental patients, but where I live they have an actual Asylum.
Anyways That's an update on what's going on and here's me keeping positive and hoping the streak of clearer and more happy attitude stays alive.
-Spark
I stopped getting on my computer, stopped checking this, stopped responding to text messages, pretty much I shut down and shut off from the world.
It's going on day three, three days in a row (btw) that I've not felt like I couldn't lift my head, that everything was closing in around me and ripping me apart while trying to suffocate me at the same time. It's been a solid three days of feeling actually positive!!!!!!!!!!
I'm not going to try to overwhelm myself, but I do plan to work on some back due art.
It will be smaller things and if I am still feeling good I'll move on to the bigger pieces.
This DOES NOT MEAN I am open to take on more work.
I know I had a few people note me and ask about ref sheets, adopts, YCHS. Please those who asked, keep me in mind for future work, once I am 100% back and I have cleaned up my back log of work I will open!
I also want to thank the people that have com'd me, and have been waiting for me to finish. I'm thanking you, for not bugging at me non stop, and being understanding with my problem.
I do plan on seeing a doctor about this, but I've got lots of hoops to jump through before that can happen. Aka I have medicaid so I get to try and find a therapist that works with that, OR one that works with people that are unemployed. I know where I live, they are out there it's just hard to find them, get an appointment made (aka couple I called had NOTHING open for MONTHS) some weren't taking new patients etc. It's a biiiiiitch.
and I won't lie I reached a point in my depression where I actually thought about going to the Hospital and checking myself in, and I do mean the nut hospital, in case that's a what? Because I know some states have regular hospitals that have wards for mental patients, but where I live they have an actual Asylum.
Anyways That's an update on what's going on and here's me keeping positive and hoping the streak of clearer and more happy attitude stays alive.
-Spark
I'm a sponge for venting!