Hello, Im kinda had a... conflict lately. Mostly because of jealous and stupidity. But I really want to talk something, so I hope you wouldn't mind of reading some gossip or deep conversation.

I noticed one of my local artist got his stuff broken and he uses it to work and to draw. He ranting about his friends that had the same thing, but since they were rich, his friends bought another the same expensive stuff. And so, he wanted a help for donation so he can get back to work and draw again. He said that he hasn't many friends to borrow the stuff and he already went out from his parents by himself. In a few days, he asked and chatted many group chats and journals in here and there, which made him got overfunded (I heard it had already hit 1000 USD) and counting. He was grateful and everyone was touched. Happy Ending.

The thing is... this guy did the same long time ago, with almost similar reason. Which made him looks like the most suffering people in the world. Even my friend that hardly give money was donated a big sum of it.

And so, I'm thinking again... there was a time of my company was almost went bankrupt and we almost sold our properties to clear our debt, my laptop that I had with all of both my college and drawing stuff inside broke so I have to start over and took five years to buy new laptop and computer, and even I had to rarily eat for almost two years so I can buy bamboo tablet. While I could get all of them in less than a week via donations.

In other side, I like how ppls still care about each other, but in other side, is ppl really prefer to give a donation to someone that they didn't know rather than those who really need the money which was a closer friend? (I had this once and kinda got mad)

So the Question is: If my tablet or laptop broke so I can't draw anymore and I had already away from my parents, would you like to donate and how much you would be?
!! NOTICE !! I'm not asking for donation, this is just a QUESTION. So don't give me any money except if you're in the commission slot. I don't accept charity. No, I am not that rich, but I can make the money via the commission and it is enough for me to live.

I will wait for the answer. Sorry if you see me as a stupid or unstable guy who get jealous, but yeah, I do jealous. Why I have to do anything in years while I could get more in few weeks? Who wouldn't get jealous?

Anyway, I hope this wouldn't make anything bad impression to me, I just... don't know who I have to talk with. I hope you're understand. I'm in a borrowed time.

Love you always in my dungeon
Green Shark.