Good evening (or whatever time it is in your area),

When I think it's settled down, it doesn't.

The night before last, I found out some tragic news. It was around two in the morning and I read on Facebook that one of my friends was murdered in a fairly barbaric way: multiple gunshot wounds to the head. I didn't know him for long, about a few years or so. He was someone who had the whole world ahead of him, had his whole itinerary planned out; he knew what he was doing. Then all of a sudden, he's gone. That's it. Done. No second chances. Over. I've been beside myself over that.

And that's before I found out something that was unsettling about this stalker in my case. She's continuing to create social media accounts, and asking people on the Internet for more information about me and my family. She says she's offering cash. She's posted her offer on her website, Facebook and Craigslist. Does this scare me? No. It's definitely creepy, I admit, but I'm not scared. What I am is tired and frustrated. My agitation has completely destroyed any will to be productive or motivated. It sucks. Is it legal? Apparently in the fucking state of California, sure, why not?

I can't write. I can't think. So once again, I'm going to step aside and take a break. I have four more chapters done for IN GOOD COMPANY, which need to be edited for clarity. I'll get to that. Don't know when, but I'll get to it. I'm constantly on edge, and since I don't have any friends nearby or a partner to confide to, it's harder to hash things out without consulting a therapist. I want to thank everyone who has messaged me and offered to be a sounding board. That means a lot, but I can't go into too much detail about my personal situation.

I'll be on Twitter and IMs (AIM, YIM and Skyoe), but forgive me if I sound a little broken right now.

LS