I got a hold of a fur here in Utah....he sound alright and I thought if I talked to him I'd end up meeting other furs....He told me the people in the United Utah furry group where jerks.....then went on about how I am. I have aspurgers and a issues to well....keep my emotions in check I'm not a people person real life I want to be but its hard. I found out this guy is a diaper fur and for good reason apparently the guy fell from a roof and now he can't tell when he has to go.....I then ended up just talking with him more and more about how I have been looking for a fursuit maker to help me with mine. Then he told me being a Male to female fursuiter would keep people away from me.....and also being me....I'm full of drama cause of how I was raised and how people treated me over the years. I don't know what to do with my self any more really I mean I want to draw I want to make worlds that people will love animate and write worlds like studio jubilee and Disney did for me....I want to stay in the fur fandom but people don't like being around me I only see 4 maybe 5 furs a year and that's during pride. If any one read this and starts to worry I'm okay Iv been depressed it's just I don't know if a guy who wears a well doggy hood (kink mask shaped like a dog head) can be called a fursuiter but....I don't know I really don't since I want to be my panda fursona yes my panda has tits but I don't make full on female fursona she is a herm end of story. I don't know if other furs find it weird but I want to make fur friends I want to make my suit and I want to be happy for once in my god *censor* life but I'm always stuck getting depressed and sad and I can't get away from people that cause it since I'm related to most of them.