I have so much to say & talk about. I hope I don't forget anything.

First, I want to say that I am still alive. I know I have been gone for several months now. But real life does that to me now & then.

I am sad to say that because real life has handed me a shitstorm lately, I will not be able to MFF. I am very down about this. I look forward to going every year & love visiting with all my friends there. But there is no way I can afford the cost or the time off.

Tonka & I have been working hard on our food truck. I honestly never thought I would be work in a food truck, much less be part owner of one. Business is finally getting better but it's been a rough few months. Starting next week, we will be on two different military bases. Although business is improving, it's not to the point that I can survive on that income alone. So, I am still working at Tucker Duke's. ( http://www.tuckerdukeslunchbox.com/#about ) I enjoy it, but between the food truck & TD's, I'm exhausted most days.

I haven't been going to the gym with Max & Tonka on a regular basis any longer, but I'm still getting exercise & losing weight. I now weigh LESS then I did in high school. (Which was a long time ago)

I love living in Florida & do not regret the move at all! I do miss my friends & family in Missouri, but with today's technology, it's not so bad.

Ok, anyone that really knows me, knows that I find the moon very fascinating. I enjoy just staring at it. Tonight's (November 25, 2015) full moon is called the Mourning Moon & as I was reading about it, my thoughts were "What timing!" (I will explain shortly). Below is a short article I read about it:

"According to Pagan traditions, the Mourning Moon is meant to signify a time of evolution. As this moon rises in the sky, it is recommended that we let go of the baggage we’ve been holding on to. We must cleanse ourselves as we reflect on this year’s happenings. Specifically, we must let go of anything that’s weighing us down before the new year begins.

If you’d like to awaken your inner witch or wizard, there are several cleansing rituals you can perform beneath this Mourning Moon. First, think of all the past worries and problems you want to let go of. This can be something as simple as the splurge-y dress you bought yesterday that maybe you shouldn’t have bought yesterday, or as complex as a difficult breakup. Then, you can write all these memories down on a piece of paper and submerge it in a cup of water (since this element is connected to the Mourning Moon). That way you’re literally cleansing yourself of past baggage.

After you finish with your cleansing ritual, you can then write a list of all the new habits and aspirations you wish to explore during the new year. Place this list where you’ll see it on a regular basis – on your bathroom mirror, over your desk, next to your bed, on your car’s dashboard. You can even make it your phone’s background. If you want to solidify these future promises to yourself, you can acquire Lapiz Lazuli, Turquoise, and Topaz stones – which are associated with the Mourning Moon – and carry them around as a reminder.

The Farmer’s Almanac states that today's (November 25, 2015) moon will be present at 5:44 p.m. EST. As the moon begins to rise, enable yourself to forgive, to find peace, and to release all that’s been bothering you this past year. Write down all your worries or simply imagine them in your head. Then, allow them to dissolve in a glass of water. Imagine them flowing down a drain. Afterward, give yourself the freedom to feel transformed.

Lastly, look up at the Mourning Moon. Believe that it’s truly shining a light on the dark moments of your past and paving the way for a bright future."

Ok, now that you know a little bit about the Mourning Moon, let me explain the timing factor (like I promised). Today, November 25, 2015, the judge signed all the papers and I am no longer a married fur. Yes, Trebonius & I are offically divorced. So, the timing of the Mourning Moon is uncanny to me. I guess I need to cleanse myself of the last 22 years of my life. He is back in Missouri while I have decided to stay in Florida. He is moving on with his life & I will be doing the same.

Oh, during my move, I seemed to have misplaced one of my address books. I probably won't be sending out cookies this (to costly at the moment), but I will be sending out Christmas cards. So, it you would like a card from me, note me to make sure I have an address for you.

So, a quick summary:

1. Still alive
2. No MFF
3. Working TONS
4. Exercising, no gym but still losing weight
5. Live in Florida now
6. The Mourning Moon's timing
7. Divorce finalized today.
8. Need addresses to send out cards.