The following is extremely important. Please read...

Doctors urge you to NEVER abruptly stop taking your meds n to take them as directed. Get your meds filled BEFORE you run out. This is all extremely important to know. I knew about these responsibilities, but i learned the hard way what it can actually do to you.... I made the mistake last week n forgot to refill my anti-depressant (Paxil 40mg/day) right before the weekend n ended up being off them for about 5-6 days.. I cannot even begin to explain the horror that i have been experiencing these past 4 days.. The thoughts in my head..the things i wanted to do to myself... i can't even go into detail.. it's impossible to explain.. I almost went to the hospital.. I've been having psychotic episodes on n off for these 4 days.. i have scared myself to the point of almost calling hotlines for help.. i have never felt this in my entire life but i didnt know why this was happening or who could even help.. i didnt wanna contact friends or family because i didnt want to scare them.. because i myself was terrified.. i wanted to hurt myself.. i wanted to flip tables n just hit something hard.. i scratched at my skin n pulled my hair..I couldn't even see straight.. i am extremely lucky that i didnt try to kill myself..

With that, I urge you...i beg you... do not EVER stop or let your friends/family stop taking their meds abruptly.. That label on the bottle is on there for a reason.. TAKE THEM AS DIRECTED. DO NOT ABRUPTLY STOP TAKING THEM....

From personal experience, you don't ever want to... It is just too dangerous...
I am slowly getting better. I finally got them to fill my meds today. I'm still not stable, but in no way am i as bad as earlier when i was having a psychotic episode in the grocery store...I am slowly getting back to normal but it will be probably at least a week before i feel normal again. I apologize that i havent been posting, havent been talkative, or very responsive.. Don't worry, I am ok. There is no need to message me panicked wondering if im ok as it will make it worse. Thank you everyone for your concern n support. I also want to thank the very few that talked n helped me through this...you know who you are, n i just couldnt have made it without you...I love you all...

Feel free to share n help others become aware.


Update: I have my meds now n it has been 24 hours since i started it again. I am still very unstable, but the psychotic episodes are becoming less extreme. I am trying my best to keep it under control n to get better.. thank you all for your love and concern.