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16 years ago
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in the year I've been with 
Necrodrone13 and 
Kadath062 i haven't written a single thing about my relationship at all about either of them or how things have been going! I'm going back and actually looking at my past journals and I'm seeing just the tremendous journey I've been on in the past year, I know I still have a long way to go, but I'm realizing just how much of a whiny asshole I used to be. and honestly all the progress I've made is entirely thanks to my mates. I love them both dearly and couldn't be without them ever!
I'm not trying to blow my horn, I'm just eternally thankful for having them in my life, I can honestly say that they complete me in ways I never even thought or imagined. and they've really helped me "grow up" in a sense from who I used to be. My change from tiger to a Clydesdale horse wasn't just because I was bored of the character, more like the tiger represented all the hurt and the shell of defenses I used to wear, brash, arrogant, tried to act like he knew everything, things like that. and I look back on it and don't even recognize the person from the photos a year ago. It's really a good thing in my opinion, no scratch that, the best thing, that armor was HEAVY and I cant stress that enough, Necro and Kad have freed my chains on more than one occasion, and lord knows they'll keep helping me break these shackles in my mind. normally I'd protest in being released form chains and the like *chuckles* but you get the picture you know? those aren't the fun chains, they hurt, and I mean a lot. It's been like a dream most days, and I'm scared I might wake up one day, but it's been entirely their help that's pushed me as far as I've been able to go so far, and they keep pushing me which I'm so very very thankful for. it's like having a single candle in the middle of a vast field, you can barely see it sometimes, but it's always guiding you to it, and that's the best analogy I can give on this *smiles* it's simple yet it says everything I think.
my main point in this whole thing, (sorry if I'm rambling a bit. it's just a lot of words in my head that spill out, and I just hope they make sense sometimes) is that I couldn't be happier with the 2 loves of my life Necrodrone13 and Kadath062 I've never felt more joy and focus in my life and I feel like I'm actually becoming someone that people might look up to, not look down on. and I gotta tell you, that feeling is indescribable!
on a secondary note, I'm sure you've read from their necro and kad's journals that we're moving soon. Back to my hometown of Boise, Idaho. I'm excited about it, and yet not at the same time. It's been a long time since I've been back there and with the state of things between my parents right now it can get stressful for me, but I have my 2 rocks to hold me up and keep me upright. it's a weird feeling, to look forward to going there and yet at the same time, not. I'm not sure if that makes sense, I just don't know how to explain it any other way than that. things'll be incredibly easier for us there, hell we're looking at HOUSES for less than half of what we're paying now a month, and they're 200 to 400 sq. ft. bigger than the townhouse we're in now. so there's a huge pro for that, also jobs are a bit easier there. I've already been talking with my manager here at Chile's and we're trying to get me hired (since I cant transfer to a non corporate store) there so kad and necro can work on their art and writings fulltime. another huge bonus there. Necro can have her dogs that she's always wanted, I mean seriously the list goes on! So I guess you can see how we're all looking forward to this huge opportunity that life has given us and we're taking it by the horns and hanging on with all we've got here. so that's a huge looking forward to here in the next 2 weeks, our move out date is may 15th so we'll be on blackout status till I can get our computers hooked up at my mom's house while we look for a place of our own. so that'll be really good too.
sorry I got off on a bit of a ramble tonight, just a lot to say and I'm not sure if I said it right, I hope so, I tend to mess that up sometimes. but anyways that's what I know and that about sums up life in general right now and with everything to come I'm looking forward to the ride *grins*
Necrodrone13 and 
Kadath062 i haven't written a single thing about my relationship at all about either of them or how things have been going! I'm going back and actually looking at my past journals and I'm seeing just the tremendous journey I've been on in the past year, I know I still have a long way to go, but I'm realizing just how much of a whiny asshole I used to be. and honestly all the progress I've made is entirely thanks to my mates. I love them both dearly and couldn't be without them ever! I'm not trying to blow my horn, I'm just eternally thankful for having them in my life, I can honestly say that they complete me in ways I never even thought or imagined. and they've really helped me "grow up" in a sense from who I used to be. My change from tiger to a Clydesdale horse wasn't just because I was bored of the character, more like the tiger represented all the hurt and the shell of defenses I used to wear, brash, arrogant, tried to act like he knew everything, things like that. and I look back on it and don't even recognize the person from the photos a year ago. It's really a good thing in my opinion, no scratch that, the best thing, that armor was HEAVY and I cant stress that enough, Necro and Kad have freed my chains on more than one occasion, and lord knows they'll keep helping me break these shackles in my mind. normally I'd protest in being released form chains and the like *chuckles* but you get the picture you know? those aren't the fun chains, they hurt, and I mean a lot. It's been like a dream most days, and I'm scared I might wake up one day, but it's been entirely their help that's pushed me as far as I've been able to go so far, and they keep pushing me which I'm so very very thankful for. it's like having a single candle in the middle of a vast field, you can barely see it sometimes, but it's always guiding you to it, and that's the best analogy I can give on this *smiles* it's simple yet it says everything I think.
my main point in this whole thing, (sorry if I'm rambling a bit. it's just a lot of words in my head that spill out, and I just hope they make sense sometimes) is that I couldn't be happier with the 2 loves of my life
Necrodrone13 and Kadath062 I've never felt more joy and focus in my life and I feel like I'm actually becoming someone that people might look up to, not look down on. and I gotta tell you, that feeling is indescribable!on a secondary note, I'm sure you've read from their necro and kad's journals that we're moving soon. Back to my hometown of Boise, Idaho. I'm excited about it, and yet not at the same time. It's been a long time since I've been back there and with the state of things between my parents right now it can get stressful for me, but I have my 2 rocks to hold me up and keep me upright. it's a weird feeling, to look forward to going there and yet at the same time, not. I'm not sure if that makes sense, I just don't know how to explain it any other way than that. things'll be incredibly easier for us there, hell we're looking at HOUSES for less than half of what we're paying now a month, and they're 200 to 400 sq. ft. bigger than the townhouse we're in now. so there's a huge pro for that, also jobs are a bit easier there. I've already been talking with my manager here at Chile's and we're trying to get me hired (since I cant transfer to a non corporate store) there so kad and necro can work on their art and writings fulltime. another huge bonus there. Necro can have her dogs that she's always wanted, I mean seriously the list goes on! So I guess you can see how we're all looking forward to this huge opportunity that life has given us and we're taking it by the horns and hanging on with all we've got here. so that's a huge looking forward to here in the next 2 weeks, our move out date is may 15th so we'll be on blackout status till I can get our computers hooked up at my mom's house while we look for a place of our own. so that'll be really good too.
sorry I got off on a bit of a ramble tonight, just a lot to say and I'm not sure if I said it right, I hope so, I tend to mess that up sometimes. but anyways that's what I know and that about sums up life in general right now and with everything to come I'm looking forward to the ride *grins*
It's good to hear things are going well emotionally, and they say that writing it down really helps put it in perspective and possibly appreciate things even more that way. The strides you've made with Kad&Necro's help are quite impressive, and definitely something you can be proud of - getting out of the state you describe is rough (to put it mildly)
That moving back to Boise is cause for some anxiety is hardly surprising, but as you yourself say, you'll have 2 people with you that you can always rely on to pull you through it :)
Seriously though, it's great that you've found a love that you can support and supports you. I'm wishing the three of you great fortune in you upcoming endeavors and much luck in life.
It's nice to hear about what's happening with other furs lives now and then like you are posting here. Thank you for posting sugar, it was a good read, and informative. :)
good luck with teh move and all to with yall
Good luck and grate jounry for the future dude, sounds like you have earned it
You know what I'm talking about Necro...
<_<
>_>
Hit me up on MSN sometime.
Now lick my hooves, damn it.
*snicker*
(Seriously, though...congrats! It feels good to shed one's armor.)
I know that it's possible for me to find it. You said yourself that they've helped you break your chains from your painful past, and.... it's really a beautiful thing. It gives me hope, really.
I know you guys are moving to Idaho, so I really, truly wish you three the best. I firmly believe that there is nobody deserving of such if you three are not.
Take care and best wishes.
So that's where you are all movin! Quite a big change indeed-- has either Kad or Necro lived somewhere so flat before? :D
Would any of your concerns or worries about moving back have to do with your family and your relationship? Do they know about being involved with two?
And goodluck on landing a nice new place to live! Things in the midwest can be far cheaper than the west coast X3