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Follow me on Amino and here's the link: http://aminoapps.com/page/furry-ami.....ruzo-dragonius
If you seen my latest video on YouTube and if you can tell with the way I was behaving making this pledge video for 
RueWinters that I seem depressed than yes. I am actually depressed. If you looked at my previous journals then you all know that I'm depressed over the fact that is fursuit related. The fact of uncertainty that the maker I went with before this incident I had with her will ever take me back as her client after the way I behaved towards her. But at least I apologised to her so I guess it's a maybe.
I find it very heartfelt to see that people did notice that depression of mine. Well, for one Al CaBone (
Pachuco) messaged me on Facebook last Thursday in regards to that and he recommended me to this US based company that makes fursuits and other cosplay outfits called 
Plus3Defense. I seen the company's website before and this argoinian fursuit this person did and OMG even for a partial it looks so damn cool. If there is no such thing as a fursuit maker in Australia and if I only had to choose an American to make Bruzo for me as at least for now a partial I'd probably go with them. He even said that he would put at least $US1,000 into the commission of the suit of which I am so damn grateful and appreciative of him willingly doing that for me. He's a saint for doing that just for a stranger that are dying of wanting to become a fursuiter like him. But on the downside, according to Plus 3's website, they are currently closed for quotes and commissions. But at least I submitted my e-mail address to them so they could be in touch with me when they open again.
Apart from up and coming the car related payments I need to make, the conflict I had with the previous maker to a point she said no to this project and having to get a quote from this other fursuit maker and so on there's this other obstacle I had to overcome. And that is the fact that 3 months from now, my dad is planning on retiring as a boilermaker. With his age and how hard he worked just to keep the roof over me and the rest of my families head and the food in our guts and so on, he deserves to retire and I'm not arguing against that. But however, it's this financial uncertainty of whats going to happen. Being that it could be the fact that my family will loose money because of this and we had to cut back on things. Maybe I might loose some of my money as it would go towards my rent.
Last time I checked my fursuit account I have as you see in my profile $871.36 and that's in Australian currency. What if my car gets deemed unroadworthy before it gets even insured and what if I get told by my mechanic that I need new tyres or it needs work on the engine itself that would demolish the money I being dead set trying to save on a custom made argonian fursuit. What if I may never be able to walk around as Bruzo in my entire life or in any fursuit because of that? I also want to even go to a con dressed as Bruzo Dragonius even.
I tried even talking to my parents about wanting to do this but they constantly disagree with me choosing to go through this path. Not like I'm doing this for sexual reasons. Not like it's if it I were to join ISIS. Not like it's going out killing people or rob a bank. I even talked about this to my own brother and he seems so frustrated even hearing me wanting to save up money for Bruzo to be born as a suit. Just so I could shut up and not bug them about this dream of mine maybe and hopefully my parents will put some money aside for the commission I really wanted done. Originally mum didn't want to help me to pay for this costume as she would deem herself "hypocritical" if she did as she is against this furry fandom. But so the fuck what? Can't she put her beliefs aside and help me achieve this goal of mine of becoming Bruzo and do what I want to do as him? That's what I what. To entertain people be it on YouTube or out in public or at a con as an actual real life argonian or at least a closest resemblance to one.
I so even desperate to be an argonian to a point I need to fix this problem that I had with Pay Pal and not only take in a bigger variety of commissions that I hope I would do after I do this secret Santa thing I got invited into through Facebook involving me doing most likely traditional art as I don't have the equipment to do digital. Also I been thinking on depending on crowd funding sites like Kickstarter, GoFundMe or what other youtubers do it through which is Patrion. But most likely Patrion. And if I do get this fursuit I will be my less depressed then I currently am now as long as I still have a car that is up to code and without mechanical problems. Also some time and excuse to even dress as Bruzo would help.
RueWinters that I seem depressed than yes. I am actually depressed. If you looked at my previous journals then you all know that I'm depressed over the fact that is fursuit related. The fact of uncertainty that the maker I went with before this incident I had with her will ever take me back as her client after the way I behaved towards her. But at least I apologised to her so I guess it's a maybe.I find it very heartfelt to see that people did notice that depression of mine. Well, for one Al CaBone (
Pachuco) messaged me on Facebook last Thursday in regards to that and he recommended me to this US based company that makes fursuits and other cosplay outfits called 
Plus3Defense. I seen the company's website before and this argoinian fursuit this person did and OMG even for a partial it looks so damn cool. If there is no such thing as a fursuit maker in Australia and if I only had to choose an American to make Bruzo for me as at least for now a partial I'd probably go with them. He even said that he would put at least $US1,000 into the commission of the suit of which I am so damn grateful and appreciative of him willingly doing that for me. He's a saint for doing that just for a stranger that are dying of wanting to become a fursuiter like him. But on the downside, according to Plus 3's website, they are currently closed for quotes and commissions. But at least I submitted my e-mail address to them so they could be in touch with me when they open again.Apart from up and coming the car related payments I need to make, the conflict I had with the previous maker to a point she said no to this project and having to get a quote from this other fursuit maker and so on there's this other obstacle I had to overcome. And that is the fact that 3 months from now, my dad is planning on retiring as a boilermaker. With his age and how hard he worked just to keep the roof over me and the rest of my families head and the food in our guts and so on, he deserves to retire and I'm not arguing against that. But however, it's this financial uncertainty of whats going to happen. Being that it could be the fact that my family will loose money because of this and we had to cut back on things. Maybe I might loose some of my money as it would go towards my rent.
Last time I checked my fursuit account I have as you see in my profile $871.36 and that's in Australian currency. What if my car gets deemed unroadworthy before it gets even insured and what if I get told by my mechanic that I need new tyres or it needs work on the engine itself that would demolish the money I being dead set trying to save on a custom made argonian fursuit. What if I may never be able to walk around as Bruzo in my entire life or in any fursuit because of that? I also want to even go to a con dressed as Bruzo Dragonius even.
I tried even talking to my parents about wanting to do this but they constantly disagree with me choosing to go through this path. Not like I'm doing this for sexual reasons. Not like it's if it I were to join ISIS. Not like it's going out killing people or rob a bank. I even talked about this to my own brother and he seems so frustrated even hearing me wanting to save up money for Bruzo to be born as a suit. Just so I could shut up and not bug them about this dream of mine maybe and hopefully my parents will put some money aside for the commission I really wanted done. Originally mum didn't want to help me to pay for this costume as she would deem herself "hypocritical" if she did as she is against this furry fandom. But so the fuck what? Can't she put her beliefs aside and help me achieve this goal of mine of becoming Bruzo and do what I want to do as him? That's what I what. To entertain people be it on YouTube or out in public or at a con as an actual real life argonian or at least a closest resemblance to one.
I so even desperate to be an argonian to a point I need to fix this problem that I had with Pay Pal and not only take in a bigger variety of commissions that I hope I would do after I do this secret Santa thing I got invited into through Facebook involving me doing most likely traditional art as I don't have the equipment to do digital. Also I been thinking on depending on crowd funding sites like Kickstarter, GoFundMe or what other youtubers do it through which is Patrion. But most likely Patrion. And if I do get this fursuit I will be my less depressed then I currently am now as long as I still have a car that is up to code and without mechanical problems. Also some time and excuse to even dress as Bruzo would help.
