Sorry I didnt update sooner, I've been emotionally and mentally wiped out. I apologize to all who were waiting for an update and noted, commented, or messaged me.

Sophie's funeral was 2 weeks ago (Obituary here: http://www.ariacremation.com/obituary/8848/ ) and it just doesnt feel right that she's not here. My birthday was yesterday(Nov 29th) and I didnt feel much like celebrating though I did go and spend some time with my dad and his gf, Laura.

Was a rough visit as we chatted about things that we needed to finish doing to end her current affairs, like her facebook( https://www.facebook.com/sophia.eth.....dge.73?fref=ts ), Instagram, Snapchat, Vine, and other accounts. Going through her emails and answering any messenger and kik messages to any and all who needed or wanted someone to talk to during these hard times. More details on her suicide that I wasn't aware of and discussed details that were included in her last will and testament that were on her IPad.

My dad gave me her cell phone and it was even harder as I saw the darker more hidden side of her. I ended up deleting well over 1600+ pics and videos that were dark, depressing, had to do with suicide. Even cleared her internet browser because it showed her researching suicides and how to do them. For me, seeing my little 14yr old sister look up these things when she showed no sign of depression or having these darker thoughts was very heartbreaking. She could have gotten an award for award winning best actress because she surprised everyone, friends, best friends, and family.

Apparently, she had been writing her last will and testament for over 2 years so this was something she was bound and determined to do. Knowing she started this when she was only 12 was even harder for me to wrap my head around.

As for financial issues, well, I'm still struggling but the apartment complex is willing to give me til the 15th to come up with all of it. That alone is a huge help and gives me some more time to figure things out. I am back working but it'll take another week for my full paychecks to come in again as I took some time off for Bereavement but, unfortunately, it was non-paid time off.

I am slowly making it day by day. Keeping my mind busy with movies, work, family, and the pregnancy. I dont think I will ever fully get over her loss but time will help me to be able to move on a bit easier. This was a sudden hard loss for all her friends and family that we didnt see coming, as we didnt even know she was having such difficulties.

This was the first Thanksgiving without her and will also be the first Christmas and birthday(her birthday is Jan 9th) without her here so I'm trying to give my dad and the rest of the family as much love and support as I can while also trying to not overwhelm myself emotionally and mentally as I also need support and a shoulder to lean on from time to time.

If you'd like to help, I am still about $400 short on bills and rent(which makes saving up for January's rent of $778+electricity even harder to do so I worry we will need a little help for that as well until we are caught back up with everything):

paypal: known2bite[at]yahoo.com
GoFundMe: https://www.gofundme.com/y99wvatg

December Rent and Bills: $400 short
January Rent and Bills: $778 plus $100 electric - I am sure we can probably come up with at least half of it, if not more.

I do not mind posting more proof if any one needs or wants it.

Thank you and God Bless. <3