I guess this is a ranting journal, but whatever. I don't know what else my mom wants from me. I'm an all A student with high goals. I went to college early under PSO and I signed up for an internship at NASA for God's sakes. I have the motivation to get places. But it never seems I'm good enough. Everything she wants from me is a contradiction. Why don't you get involved? I do then 2 months later she complains about my involvement costing too much money or she doesn't like taking me to things. She did this to me for band, horseback riding, Tae Kwon Duo and violin. I've never fought with my mom nor am I ever in her way. In fact I'm always in my room because I'm afraid I'll bother someone. She doesn't like that either, but when I'm out of my room trying to be social I guess they tease me and ask me wtf I'm doing outside of my room...All of my brothers have emotional issues and are getting in trouble all the time while I sit here with a clean record. Yet she yells at me and lets them do whatever the fuck they want. It's a bit irritating. I dunno. Maybe if I went around and smoked pot, skipped school, and got bad grades I'd be accepted. Not that I'd ever do that...But seriously...I feel as though I deserve her to be off my back...A part of me can't wait to move out when I graduate. She always tells me how hard my college is gonna be like I'm fucking retarded. I go to a community college for my PSO sure cause it's close. She went to a University which actually...some of my professors work at the university she went to/mine so I'm getting the same GED education while in high school...I'm transferring to a state college under computer/electrical engineering...I really want to help people and advance in my field... ._. Her BF is in electrical engineering and she acts like I'm not able to handle it and I'm too lazy to work under an engineering field...My lab at my high school has been harder than any college class I've taken because of my teacher. (In fact he's been fired from other local high schools for "teaching too much") I'm sorry, but how many of you have lecture for 3 hours straight every day then take a 6-7 page test every Monday and have an A? I don't think I'm better than everyone else, but I feel as though I work hard and earn what I get...I just wanted to be treated with respect, like I'm an adult. I don't know where I'm going with this. Bah. /rant