I have never been a very unhappy person, as I have loving family and friends as well as having life pretty good. For those of you who have seen my previous journal (not the bird one), everything is better with my girlfriend and I. Still, lately I have had bouts of this very dreadful feeling. Normaly It has been very infrequent questioning of whether people actually like me or are just tolerating me out of pity. Lately, though, I have sometimmes felt this awful dread feeling. I wonder when I am with someone if this might be the last time I see them. Especially with all the stuff going on lately with all these attacks and shootings. A lot of thizs has to do withbmy anxiety disorder and OCD leading to me jumping to the worst possible situation and then dwell on it. On the other side I am looking forward to Christmas and winter break. That will be a nice break from stress. I hope everyone is having a great winter so far!
-hype