I know the reason I felt bad about trying to have some christmas ideas,but I wanted to give a gift which is heart warming,So I decided to make some Christmas requests for anyone who would like one such as some presents from me to you guys but the real problem I had is wondering if,I have to wait for a other christmas request to get it and it made me feel upset and bad and I need someone to cheer me up,So I decided to give everybody a request for the holidays starting today and will be finished before the 25th of December,plus I really wished that this year could be my final christmas idea and wait till next year,also I have tough challenges such as trying to help tell my ideas but I got no luck which I failed to do,But I feel so upset and feel left out that no one helps me out I don't want my christmas idea would come true,but sadly its my last and final christmas request which I really wanted so much including the fact is,I have to wait a another christmas for a request I wish to tell the most but I guess that its not coming true since I feel gloomy and down in the dumps including sad that my christmas 2015 request has been permanetly gone which could be a blue christmas for me on FA this year also I decided to make a art featuring with Clover with her Blue Christmas http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18451450/ like I have one also this song is about my struggles https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r9gz0Z9yV1k