Okay then a couple days ago i announced my desire to leave. I think i should explain myself further.

First of all im not leaving right away. I dont have an exact time frame but i think a couple months in order to test the waters and take care of a few things. I simply announced my desire for departure early so that anyone who cared would express their toughs and have adequate knowledge. I think i at least owe an advanced warning.

Second of all, ive been thinking on this further since some of my friends had talked to me about it. Ive been feelign cold feet about the whole thing since i announced it but i begin to realise that i really do want to change things. I think that i should handle this a diffrent way. Instead of just outright leaving without looking back i should try to handle things tactfully and with grace. Im not leaving the fandom, never was, i just wana start over and express myself differently.

and as far as my friends go, i think i should try to rekindle old friendships as best i can before i outright try and let it all go. My problem is i feel a certain amount of spite and distrust and yet i am incredibly sentimental and get attached. Another huge issue i have is i get incredibly insecure when some of my friends dont talk to me for a long time, wondering if they even like me anymore.

How im going to handle this is try establish a change in how i express myself with a different character and account. In that time im going to try new things with people, try to work things out and in the end decide whether or not i want my new self to be known.

And if everything works out well maybe i wont end up feeling like i made a huge mistake.

Ill call this something different from a departure. Its more like a change.