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I thought I was going to be more productive here but
10 years ago
but...
But!!!!!!
Honestly I am going stir-crazy
I can't get work done, it's just .. not happening (other than neopets I guess? but that takes several attempts to get anywhere) and when I DO designate time to sit down and work
mum is there
she just.. shes real nice dont get me wrong. she KNOWS that i do this work, and she worked fulltime as an artist a few years back, so she knows that i need to work on things but
she keeps interrupting with tasks - which i understand, house must have maintenance
she also doesnt seem to understand noise-cancelling headphones. i cant.... hear you when you talk to me........ mother pls
my body is suffering too since I've gotten used to a very limited+specific diet (mostly because of finance) and now that I'm here, the huge change in eats is wreaking havoc
on top of the fact that I have to force myself into sensible waking hours despite my body clock wanting to flip itself every couple of weeks and do terrible things to whatever sleep habits i manage to maintain until then
AND HAYFEVER
AUGH
i forgot it existed but i've just been Wrecked by it here, even with antihistamines
but the Worst Thing. the worst thing is that
despite having been fulltime artist WITH two kids to support and a mortgage
despite knowing that art is definitely a thing and despite encouraging me to get into the industry (we went to the dreamworks exhibition and she kept saying 'you could be in here doing this') despite knowing that i do commissions and do them a lot and (usually) quickly and have wonderful and repeat customers and all that stuff
'you need to get a job'
wow
ok
thanks mum
But!!!!!!
Honestly I am going stir-crazy
I can't get work done, it's just .. not happening (other than neopets I guess? but that takes several attempts to get anywhere) and when I DO designate time to sit down and work
mum is there
she just.. shes real nice dont get me wrong. she KNOWS that i do this work, and she worked fulltime as an artist a few years back, so she knows that i need to work on things but
she keeps interrupting with tasks - which i understand, house must have maintenance
she also doesnt seem to understand noise-cancelling headphones. i cant.... hear you when you talk to me........ mother pls
my body is suffering too since I've gotten used to a very limited+specific diet (mostly because of finance) and now that I'm here, the huge change in eats is wreaking havoc
on top of the fact that I have to force myself into sensible waking hours despite my body clock wanting to flip itself every couple of weeks and do terrible things to whatever sleep habits i manage to maintain until then
AND HAYFEVER
AUGH
i forgot it existed but i've just been Wrecked by it here, even with antihistamines
but the Worst Thing. the worst thing is that
despite having been fulltime artist WITH two kids to support and a mortgage
despite knowing that art is definitely a thing and despite encouraging me to get into the industry (we went to the dreamworks exhibition and she kept saying 'you could be in here doing this') despite knowing that i do commissions and do them a lot and (usually) quickly and have wonderful and repeat customers and all that stuff
'you need to get a job'
wow
ok
thanks mum
their time in the land of art don't seem to understand that. And the same
goes for them constantly thinking I'm just sitting on my butt wasting time
doodling, when I'm actually getting commissions. I'm being hammered
with being called lazy and jobless, when I'm actually working.
Even when I moved out, I'm still getting this. It's... infuriating and disheartening.
I know tho if you have, I have no better advice...
If I applied for Weta currently, it's likely that I'd get at least somewhere in there?? but my motivation to actually do that is sort of low.
The whole thing of me complaining about all this is that mum's supporting me in one way, saying that I could go places with what I'm doing, but somehow I think she views it as a bit of a backstage career. She must've struggled a lot when she was a fulltime artist, and most likely doesn't want me to go the same way.. except she did traditional paintings, and I'm doing on-commission digital things, so it's going to have completely different results.
You don't need to make art in speed records.
Chores or not, whatever tasks she has, you gotta make her understand you can not do any while you work. Because working means working, and not being available for this and that. Whether you sit in a room far away at a company or at home does not make a difference, and just because you're in eyesight it doesn't change your availability.
It's going to be not so easy I guess, but you gotta learn to ignore what she asks of you at such times. When you work you work, and don't do chores. And your mother needs to learn that too. For this to work out both of you will need a fair bit of discipline. :/