Commissions/Life Update~
10 years ago
My good friends!!
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Hey gang, just a quick update on how things are going.
It's been a really stressful couple of months mostly because of work at the jewelry store. Long story short everyone has a sales goal each month and I'm struggling to reach mine. Even though I'm doing great in all other aspects of my job, corporate only cares about numbers. :/
So it's been getting difficult to keep my spirits up this season. I noticed my health isn't doing well either (mental and physical). I've been fighting a tooth infection since October and I can't take action until next year rolls around because we can't afford it at this time. I'll be seeing an oral surgeon as soon as possible. It's hard to believe but I still have a baby tooth in my bottom jaw. An adult tooth never developed so it just stayed put this whole time. Now the roots of this tooth are pretty much gone so it's a dead tooth. It'll have to be removed and I'll need an implant to replace it (our insurance doesn't cover the procedure).
Until then I'm taking antibiotics to fight the infection.
I hate to bring this up again, but because of the season and the holiday stress, my depression has been kicking my butt again. I think if I just be honest and get it off my chest it should help me feel better. I've been procrastinating to write this journal mostly because I feel ashamed.
I just don't want anyone to think I'm using 'depression' as an excuse or for attention. I can't express how disappointed I am in myself, because when I get this way it's a real struggle to get any work done. When I don't get work done, I let myself and others down. I don't deserve your kindness and patience. I hate making anyone wait so long on their commissions but I can assure you it'll be worth it in the end.
Right now it's like pushing a boulder up a steep hill and it keeps sliding back down.
I'm not giving up, eventually that boulder will reach the top and roll to the other side.
Thank you all who have been waiting patiently for their commissions and to those who are waiting for me to reopen.
It warms my heart when people want art from me, it truly does. <:')
Everyone have a Merry Christmas and a Happy Holiday~ <3
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Well if you ever need to vent I am here for you. :)
YOU GOT THIS THOUGH. *Joins other in corner cheering for you*
I'm slowly shaking off this awful feeling. Just gotta get back into the swing of things soon~
I understand how you feel. Depression has been getting the better of me lately too. There's no shame in talking about it with your friends, that's one of the best things about having them. Besides, it's better for than keeping it bottled up and eating away at you. Just keep telling yourself "I'll make it through this," because we all know you will :)