Ahh well, this week was horrible for me... after 5 years fighting against her lung problems... mi mother (grandma) pass away the 14th of december at 18:45... I have lost a big part of my life... because I was the one taking care of her and my grandfather, and losing one of them... makes me feel bad... so bad... she had this problem for a long time... many years! and it was years that I promise them that I would take care of them and that they would never end up in an asylum... and that was it... now that she is gone, I feel like I have lost part of my life... my grandfather is still around now and I must take care of him...
If people ask: Where have I been? Why haven't I uploaded any new drawings? Or not talk very often on Skype or Steam? Is because I was working really hard... is curious and foolish at the same time, that I worked so much to be able to take care of them! and then I felt... that I had less and less time with them (even way less time for me) working as a guard in a store kills me... it destroy me... just to recieve a salary to keep them calm and under control... both of them very thankful of everything, always worried about me and everything I did... that changed my life entirely... my grandmother was like a real mother for me... she was everything, just like my grandfather... and now that she is gone, I'm just broken... feeling bad... she prepared me for this very moment and stay strong, and I do try very hard... yesterday was the burial and now I feel the house so... strange... tomorrow I go back to work... and my only thought now is to keep moving foward!... but really, this shakes my entire world... I will try to be more available now... I suppose, I still have lots to do... but I thank everyone that sent their condolences, love and comprehension... to those who still are with me to this very this... and to those who were not there, no need to worry! is the thought that counts... so a thousand thanks to everything, really thank you so much!