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*warning, sad journal* recent update
10 years ago
I would just simply like to update what i've been doing so far.
I've been a bit under the weather this past month and normally it's stressful this time of month and year except things have not been swell for me now that I have to pay a $500 deductible for a car accident I was recently involved in about a month ago (which the insurance companies claimed it was both me and the other persons fault) but I also have not been seeing any neat cars either and I don't wanna take pics of random vehicles on the road, they gotta capture my interests.
I have just been feeling sad for no reason as of lately and I don't know what it is. I have a nice car, great family, minimum wage job, finishing up college, etc. It can't be about finding love or anything because I don't want any of that just yet, I guess its that i've been lonely for a good while. It feels like I am by myself while all my other friends go hang out with other people and i'm just sitting here like "I guess i'll go play this game alone" or something like that.
I don't know where else to turn and try to get away from this sadness, it might be depression I think because i've been feeling it for several months but I don't think it's that either because when i'm talking to someone, i'm more happier about myself, it feels great being in a crowd of people that actually WANT you and not some fake friends that want you to do some stupid shit only to expect something to happen to you.
I do however got some very exciting plans for the near future that I really want to do with some out of state friends but in order to achieve these goals, I got to find a more decent job, finish college, and start my career (Also get a newer vehicle because the one I got now is used and it's already been shot; also, it's not the particular trim I want but a new trim coming out which I really want ;-; )
I hope to turn into a more stable road and be more happier about myself and i'm lucky to make it this far thanks to some friends who support me.
I've been a bit under the weather this past month and normally it's stressful this time of month and year except things have not been swell for me now that I have to pay a $500 deductible for a car accident I was recently involved in about a month ago (which the insurance companies claimed it was both me and the other persons fault) but I also have not been seeing any neat cars either and I don't wanna take pics of random vehicles on the road, they gotta capture my interests.
I have just been feeling sad for no reason as of lately and I don't know what it is. I have a nice car, great family, minimum wage job, finishing up college, etc. It can't be about finding love or anything because I don't want any of that just yet, I guess its that i've been lonely for a good while. It feels like I am by myself while all my other friends go hang out with other people and i'm just sitting here like "I guess i'll go play this game alone" or something like that.
I don't know where else to turn and try to get away from this sadness, it might be depression I think because i've been feeling it for several months but I don't think it's that either because when i'm talking to someone, i'm more happier about myself, it feels great being in a crowd of people that actually WANT you and not some fake friends that want you to do some stupid shit only to expect something to happen to you.
I do however got some very exciting plans for the near future that I really want to do with some out of state friends but in order to achieve these goals, I got to find a more decent job, finish college, and start my career (Also get a newer vehicle because the one I got now is used and it's already been shot; also, it's not the particular trim I want but a new trim coming out which I really want ;-; )
I hope to turn into a more stable road and be more happier about myself and i'm lucky to make it this far thanks to some friends who support me.
