My blood glucose levels are completely out of control. Literally. My physical health started to deteriorate since last month for some reason but only now it is taking another step towards its mortal stage. I can do fuck all to palliate it; insulin used to work just slightly but now any dosage is in complete vain. Then again, I'm one of the unluckiest motherfuckers on this planet whose life is devoid of logic to the most primitive aspect. No matter what I do, fate always throws in some occurence beyond my fucking control that devastates everything. The steps I've taken should logically work in my favor, but fate has decided that my life must be an absolute hellhole no matter what happens. It started with diabetes when I was 14, two years later a chronic urination malfunction that nobody else on this planet has, and now this. Why in Christ's name does this have to occur to me and me only, and why am I not allowed to do anything about it. Not to mention my neighborhood is an absolute warzone rife with fireworks stunting day in day out. Fuck.